I hate myself right now. I'm not pretty unless I'm thin! Fuck food I'll never eat again! I just need to drink coffee and water and sleep...

Hey yea I didn't write for a while but... I guess you could say I had a bit of a milestone last night. I've been with my boyfriend about a month now but we've known each other for 13 years. I love him so much and it's really hard to explain, but I feel like we've been together forever. But anyway, last night we kind of got mad at each other, and ( Read more... )

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Since i last wrote i have a serious boyfriend and have read the best little girl in the world twice, but i've only managed to lose 3 pounds. I am such a fatass but i will change it, infact that's why i started writing again, I'm going to lose the weight. And it isn't going to be like all the other million times when i said that, it's for real. ( Read more... )

This is the last time I'll do this. The next time I write I will be thin. Bottom line ...my mouth will not open for food. Water is good and clean and pure. 90 Pounds here I come.

I don't need food or drinks ..I just need water ..that is all ..just water just water and air. I don't need energy because I have to burn off the energy I never used yet on my body. This is the fattest I've ever been and it's a horrible place. It's worse than anything I've ever felt before. NO MORE FOOD ...I am going to be the girl who just ( Read more... )

I feel so so so sick. I had way way too many shots last night (I had about 7 and I get tipsy after 1 or 2). I threw up hardcore, and I woke up to a friend of mine trying to take advantage of me, later the same thing happened again with another friend. I was honestly shocked, I can never trust guys again! I actually am so hurt and sick about ( Read more... )

Food discusts me. If you saw me you would know why. It stimulates your tounge and stomache but it makes your entire body and being a big fat discusting mess. Grr. Today at hockey this new girl came. She went to grade school with me for a little while and everyone was talking about how skinny she got. She did ..she must have lost 40 pounds. ( Read more... )

I can't even speak about the amount of food I ate today ..it's dispicable. It doesn't matter tho.. I have doubles tommarrow (9-11, 2-4) and I'm not eating, not now not ever. Fuck me! UHHHHG ..plus I like this boy Ty ..he's so cute and he's new at my school and I know all the sluts in my class are going to be after him but whatever ..he can take ( Read more... )

Okay so today starts doubles (mandatories) for Feild Hockey. The first session was not bad at all! It actually felt kind of good! ..I haven't eaten at all today and I don't think I had any calories either ..I had green tea and sweet-n-low for breakfast and I am having some coffee right now so I can stay awake ( I didn't get alot of sleep last ( Read more... )