Sorry
Hey yea I didn't write for a while but... I guess you could say I had a bit of a milestone last night. I've been with my boyfriend about a month now but we've known each other for 13 years. I love him so much and it's really hard to explain, but I feel like we've been together forever. But anyway, last night we kind of got mad at each other, and I've got nothing but my bodyimage to blame. He always touches my stomache and I hate it! Like, just to feel his hand there makes alarms go off in my head like "He thinks you're so fat" and "He's squeezing your fat roll right now you slob!" It's not his fault that I feel like a cow, he loves everything about me (I know cause he told me.) But I do like when he touches me it's just scary for me. I mean I would probably be mad too if I couldn't touch him. I dunno.
All I know is I am definatly losing 30 pounds before senior week, I don't care what it takes. I have until July 3rd to do it. Well, that is a week before my 18th birthday too (A huge milestone.) So I have some work to do. Exersize, coffee, hot tea, water and the occasional sugar free red bull. I can do this. I need to do this, for senior week, my boyfriend, and most importantly for me and my own happiness.
<3 you all
All I know is I am definatly losing 30 pounds before senior week, I don't care what it takes. I have until July 3rd to do it. Well, that is a week before my 18th birthday too (A huge milestone.) So I have some work to do. Exersize, coffee, hot tea, water and the occasional sugar free red bull. I can do this. I need to do this, for senior week, my boyfriend, and most importantly for me and my own happiness.
<3 you all