i'm still feeling some heartbreak from my little adventure with thomas, mainly it's coming from feeling guilty though.
i don't know its just.. ya, one of those things where i don't understand what i'm feeling.
regret is not something i want to have but i have a feeling i'm going to, i haven't regreted it yet but what's done is already done.

although ( Read more... )

i have so much to say about him rite now..
questions, simple thoughts, what i know about him, the way he makes me feel, his looks, our conversations, you name it!
i could write for hours.

gah.. i'm confused, but i know i want to be with him. that's what i'm always confused about but this time that isn't the case.
i don't want you to fall for me just ( Read more... )

all these memories that are suppose to be vivid are just a blurr.
kissing eddie for the first time, phone conversations, some with thomas others with well others, like tyler.
(like i can remember a good portion of what happend, moments i can imagine, but it's not all there, the feeling i cannot feel when i think of them.) i'm confused as to why that ( Read more... )

ok.. this is the just of my valentines day..

=]

yesterday i had austin surprise me and come to my school(he goes to the other high school campus)
came into my class with my friends claire and soul.
they had me sit up front and sang me a song. ^_^
he gave me a rose and they left.
i got home and my mom had chocolates for me. =]

then today i was woken up by ( Read more... )

well.. we just met and here's what came of it.

i like this guy.. my feelings for him are unknown at the moment.
i like him, and i hope i don't fuck it up as usual.
his features are incredible, i hope i'm not being blinded.
he's great to talk to, i hope i can get to the point of actually knowing who he is.
he likes me, i hope he realizes how much his ( Read more... )

i have a feeling i'm gunna end up pushing him away.
i can't keep getting my hopes up when opening up to a guy.
i don't mean to sound depressing but i don't even know where my feelings stand with anything anymore.
that's pretty much all i feel like writing about him at the time.

oh and obviously i like him. =/

ok.. so i'm not going to explain anything so this might not make much sense, but it's not like many people read my blogs anyway.

so ok, shit, there's of course eddie, then thomas, alex, joe.. fuck.
i get so confused by romantic moments and gorgeous faces. =/
i'm sick of letting these things fuck me over.

i've decided to stay with eddie.
i have not ( Read more... )