Hey kids, this is my last entry on this site I think?

I have an xanga now
so if you have one as well add me on there

www.xanga.com/kayla_panic

Everything has been amazing up until now, Nikki said she wanted Amanda back a few days ago, but Amanda told me she had told her NO, but now I look on Nikki's myspace and there's a "P.S. Amanda you need to give me your answer." Now, I really don't know what to think or do because my heart is just killing me, she says she doesn't know what she's ( Read more... )

Yes yes yes! So everything with Amanda and I is back to nothing, but amazing and that's how I want it to stay I NEED it to stay that way, roar I love her so much ( Read more... )

Maybe I'm just being selfish when I feel like Amanda isn't really paying any attention to me, I mean she does, it's just I don't know how to explain it exactly. I just always feel like I'm on the back burner I suppose ( Read more... )

God, sometimes I just don't know what to do! It's a fucking Friday night supposed to be "Our" night as in Amanda and I, and all she does is sit on the computer, I remember before she used to get so mad cos I was on the computer and not paying attention to her, well god she's always on the computer and talking to other people AND me, why can't ONE ( Read more... )

In all honesty, being a kid was much easier. Dealing with a skinned knee is a lot less complicated than dealing with the matters of your heart. For the longest time I've ran from everything, mostly life. I was afraid to admitt who I was, who I am, who I want to be ( Read more... )

Okay, so Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and Monday, I stayed at Cole, and Amber's, it was nice to just get away, and not think about talking to Amanda ( Read more... )

Amanda and I had been together ALMOST 6months,well I found her XANGA today and it said NOTHING about me, only talked about Nikki [I guess she had stuff about Marissa on there, but deleted it], anddd THENNN I read this Marissa girls Xanga that I was told Amanda was dating, cos even asked Amanda over and over she claimed it was all a lie, and that ( Read more... )

I hate how, when everything finally seems to be "perfect", something has to come along and fuck it up. Amanda and I for about a week were amazing until this girl that goes to school with her Liz added me on MySpace, and I was talking to her the other morning and she had informed me that Amanda had been dating this girl at her school named Marissa, ( Read more... )

I'm horrible about keeping this updated. But things are actually pretty damn amazing lately. I have the best girlfriend in the world, my friends own, and uhm I'm actually loving life at this moment ( Read more... )