My life us stable, little to no drama, beautiful daughter, great Christian family, successful career...lack of love. I mean my husband has many great traits and says he loves me, but doesnt act like it...and no sex...for like 2 yrs now. He barely touches me, we rarely laugh...but I'm committed

Then there is what I miss...the man who made me laugh, ( Read more... )

So, life is good!  It is stressful at times, but  I think everyone feels that way.  I need to find more time for me and to focus on the things that I enjoy.  I do a lot of others and always have.  Years ago, I let that burn me out and became a rather self-focused person.  I don't want that to happen again, so I have been working on balance.

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I have some things I need to say to you and I kind of hope you never read them, but if you do, ok!

I don't know that I ever truly let you know how it felt to lose you, and not just you, but everything I had. I told you some, but I also know that I was always so concerned about your feelings and about looking or feeling crazy or unstable or ( Read more... )

Do you think your heart can be tied to a person in such a way that no matter how much time goes by, how much distance there is, or how many other people or places get your love...that person will always have some pull on it?

IT'S EASY TO SAY YOU'RE OVER SOMEONE IF YOU AREN'T SEEING THEM. THE CHALLENGE IS TO LOOK THEM IN THE EYE AND SEE THEIR SMILE AND HEAR THEIR VOICE AND STILL BE ABLE TO SAY "THIS IS NOT WHAT I WANT ANYMORE". UNKNOWN

I dont belong here...anywhere...
I grew up in one world, where I always felt different
Found another world that I really enjoyed and felt more confident in, but the people I thought were friends pushed me out
Now, I feel like I'm sitting in a glass jar looking out the world
Protected but lonely
I wish I fit in somewhere

I could have skipped ahead to the heartache and maybe found a way to rewrite it. I would have known about the losses and wins. I could have prepared myself...but I might have changed something and that would have been a mistake. I wouldn’t have made the choices I have and I would have missed out on so much. So, I live with the heartaches and ( Read more... )

Had a really hard time sleeping last night, so I just wrote some random stuff... here is a little bit

I've never been silent. I always speak my mind. But I can't now
I always let my emotions show. Never hold them back. But I must now
Barely holding it together. It's all mess in there. But I'm strong still
Need to find a balance. Need to mend what's ( Read more... )

Good Morning! Still having weird dreams and trouble sleeping. Otherwise, life is pretty awesome!
I am getting a promotion at work! Yay! Plus I love my job, so double Yay!
My kid is getting sassier and more independent every day (she is 3.5). Drives mr nuts, but wouldn't trade her for the world.
Hubby and I are finally getting a much needed date day on ( Read more... )