st patrick's day parade - good
henry poole is here - good

so back to just me.  sam screamed for 3 hours last night when i put her to bed.  about 1 1/2 of that was screaming directly in my face.  had to drive her around downtown to get her to pass out and then she woke up like 1/2 an hour later ( Read more... )

so i still didn't get a break from the last 6 months of exhaustion and now michael is leaving again.  that whole 3 weeks of having him around was nice i guess except for the part where sam and i got really sick and couldn't do much of anything other than be sick.  so now back to exhausting fun and crippling loneliness of being on my own for another ( Read more... )

so sam fell asleep while eating lunch.  and i'm not talking slightly falling asleep, i mean, she went down.  she's slightly off schedule since getting her cold/teething plus we had our new mattress delivered this morning (thank god!)  nothing is funnier than watching a baby who is trying to eat passing out ( Read more... )

one step forward, two steps back.  looks like i'm going to have to step outside the social anxiety closet and try to meet some people.  i've never so much just wanted to stay in bed and not get dressed.

so more has come out about the octo's doc and the fact that he's worked on a 49 year old woman who is now pregnant with quads and who doesn't have insurance either.  if you can afford invitro at $10,000 a pop, shouldn't you be required to prove that you've at least purchased enough health insurance to at least cover your pregnancy/babies.  oh, that ( Read more... )

this whole octo mom thing is pissing me off.  why don't i just hand my entire paycheck (when i have one) over to the state of california now.  i knew this would be the case, but i just read and confirmed that medi-cal (which is californias version of socialized medicine)  is paying for this crazy womans hospital bills.  i think if she can afford $ ( Read more... )

really?  phelps is being punished for getting caught smoking mj and getting dropped by his sponsers.  really?  this is total crap.  all you that know me know that i don't participate in the drugs, but is still think this is insane.  all those pro wrestlers/baseball/basketball/football players that actually take performance enhancing drugs and then ( Read more... )

wow.  sometimes i see the things that people put on their myspace and have to think... "do they really think that's attractive?"  i also have a hard time seperating how i feel about someone's personality from the way that they look, so someone everyone else thinks is pretty,  i may end up thinking is really painfully ugly.  also ladies...when it ( Read more... )

i don't know if i can make it though the next two weeks.   i had an anxiety attack today while i was driving with sam in the car.  chest pains, throat closing, the whole nine.  made a doctors apt, but i can't even go until after michael comes back which is completly pointless.