I don't mean to sound repetitive
but i feel like I'm going to explode

the nice thing is I don't feel so alone... I love my friends <3

I can't shake this mood... i feel like i have a world on my shoulders and a cloud over my head... i don't enjoy anything, and i've cried myself to sleep the past couple of weeks
and i pray, and i talk to ppl about it, ( Read more... )

well.. i'm tired
thanksgiving was weird ... got to sleep in... and family came over... and my uncle dan took me for a car ride to talk about colleges... and it actually was fun... but i kinda just wanted to cry the whole day...
i miss steve
not gonna lie... and it's hard to miss someone who's in love with someone else... cause well, it's pointless and ( Read more... )

Happy Thanksgiving

So far I've spent all morning reflecting on what I don't have and being pretty depressed about it
yeah.. it's gonna be a wonderful day
The family's coming over and I'm just not looking forward to it at all... I don't know why.. it's jsut gonna suck after they all leave.. cause i'm gonna sit here and think about how much of a loser ( Read more... )

so this kinda sucks
i'm pretty much in the state of mind that i'm never gonna get better
.. the doctor said it's jsut gonna run its course.. and i was like wellllllll i really just want some medicine to make it go away
my tonsils are super swollen.. you know that little dangly thing in the back of your throat? - they're touching it, and it's ( Read more... )

I just need to write
I don't care who sees it.. if no one sees it
and i don't care that I'm procrastinating from doing homework that's gonna take me hours
But i need to get this out

.. Why... why would you play with someone's mind.. someone who's loved you for years .. and leave them there.. to move on, to see what else you can get.. without even ( Read more... )

This flood
> . (this flood) . <
 is slowly rising up swallowing the ground
Beneath my feet,
Tell me how anybody thinks under this condition so
I'll swim
< . (I'll swim) . >
 as the water rises up, the sun is sinking down
And now all I can see are the planets in a row
Suggesting it's best that I slow down

This night's a perfect shade of
Dark blue -- ( Read more... )

"Love is never lost. If not reciprocated, it will flow back and soften and purify the heart."

Is that true?  Who knows... who knows what love is ... ? my opinion is everyone has their own definition... maybe love's that butterfly feeling in your tummy, or being so comfortable with another that you'd trust them with your ( Read more... )

HOLY shit... been awhile huh?
So finished the homework... and really have this desire to ramble... even tho no one ever reads this shit... I just needa talk
.. so.. the fact that I'm a senior frightens me... a little... actually like everyday it haunts me.. cause I gotta get my act together and think about college applications... wow
college ( Read more... )

Haven't updated in awhile,
But I just wanted to say thanks to Leeno & Diana & Ces & Leigh & Kate & Stevo & Pj & anyone else who went to the Wed. Night market last night - Thanks SO much, it was SUCH a relief to see familiar faces and have support .. so thanks guys - I <3 you!

And afterwards - Diana, Leeno, Me and Ces had a ball @ Applebee's  :) 
I ( Read more... )

FUCK

I Just lost it all

realtionships suck

but mine was really good
I fucking suck at life