how can such a fantastic day turn into such a SHITTY one. GAH. i want this to be over. now.

what a day.. and it's only 2:40. i'm SO tired. brady and i got back in town around 8 last night. i was greeted by josh and casandra who were both ecstatic to see me! as soon as i opened the door, josh pulled me out and picked me up and hugged me. it made me feel all kinds of happy. then casandra hugged me and i was like "i missed you!" and she said ( Read more... )

i'm sicker today that i was yesterday... and today in class, josh was like "you're so hot right now" and i thot he was kidding cuz i was blowing my nose every 5 seconds *i brot a box of kleenex to class with me and put the trash can by my chair* so i laughed. then he said "i'm not even kidding. every day you're sick, you get hotter" he's so funny. ( Read more... )

man.. how useless am i. all through high school, i was a rock. no one could touch me.. people came to me for support and advice.. i was needed. and now, what can i do to fix this? someone who means ssooo incredibly much to me is hurting, and i can't make it go away. i can't be there to hold her hand and pray for her. i can't hug her and tell her it ( Read more... )

well my day has gotten much better. josh and i talked about this morning and i talked to him about a buncha other stuff that's been on my mind and bugging me and that helped. then we were sitting in the lobby and he hadda go to soccer practice but i really wanted chinese food. so justin said we should go get some food.. and invited caleb, jen chick ( Read more... )

grar. i'm in a poopy mood. first thing this morning, josh asks me to come hang out with him, so i showered and went downstairs to see him and he's playig frisbee with zac.. so i talked to bryson till josh was done. then instead of coming adn talking to me, he went inside the lobby and played cards with a few other people. why would he ask me to ( Read more... )

what a weekend. friday night we went over to nick's apartment and watched a little bit of beverly hills ninja, then switched to the pacifier. then i came back to my dorm and went to sleep for a very, very long time. woke up around 1130 and went to see casandra because i love her. nick called while i was there and was like "hey.. let's go out to eat ( Read more... )

well josh and i are officially official as of august 31 at 1130 PM. another change of plans for the weekend - figures. josh, zac, caleb, and rovy went back to bellevue today *they just left* and they're leaving there between 10 and 11 tomorrow morning. then zac, josh, and i are going lifelight tomorrow after they all get back and ready to go. leave ( Read more... )

i was sitting here.. wondering what it would be like to die.. and realized i didn't want to be alone. and yet, here i am ( Read more... )

josh shaved his legs.. haha it rawks my world. anyway.. i'm going to sleep. hopefully i'll be awake enuf after dinner to do homework. doubt it. haha later all