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man.. how useless am i. all through high school, i was a rock. no one could touch me.. people came to me for support and advice.. i was needed. and now, what can i do to fix this? someone who means ssooo incredibly much to me is hurting, and i can't make it go away. i can't be there to hold her hand and pray for her. i can't hug her and tell her it's all going to be ohkay. i am worthless. she called me hurting.. and as soon as we hung up, what did i do? i cried. that's pathetic. bonnie says i have a big heart. i say i'm a wimp and i crumble under weight that's not my own.
well today has been emotional. like any other day, i suppose. i'm still real sick.. started to get better earlier, back to terrible tonight. josh and i had a bif earlier.. worked things out tho. i'm dead tired, and i know i need to be sleeping if i wanna get better and not be moody. i feel torn right now. broken almost. plus.. when you're sick, everything seems way worse. i'll blame it on aunt flo. OH yea. and i didn't do my homework for tomororw. well.. i did some of it. just not the one thing i told myself i was going to get done. man.. i'm a failure. i hope you all have a splendid day. xoxo
well today has been emotional. like any other day, i suppose. i'm still real sick.. started to get better earlier, back to terrible tonight. josh and i had a bif earlier.. worked things out tho. i'm dead tired, and i know i need to be sleeping if i wanna get better and not be moody. i feel torn right now. broken almost. plus.. when you're sick, everything seems way worse. i'll blame it on aunt flo. OH yea. and i didn't do my homework for tomororw. well.. i did some of it. just not the one thing i told myself i was going to get done. man.. i'm a failure. i hope you all have a splendid day. xoxo