I went and met my probation officer today. She was actually pretty nice. I was afraid I was going to go up there and I would just be treated like a criminal piece of shit. I found out I can still go to bars; I just can't drink which is fine with me. Atleast I can still go out and have fun and won't have to become a hermit. I'll just be the ( Read more... )

My court date was on Wednesday. I don't even know why I got a lawyer because I would have gotten the same sentence with a public defender. What a waste of money! I have 50 hours of SATOP, 40 hours of community service, a Victim's Impact Panel Class and 2 years supervised probation. Also my license will be suspended for 30 days, then I will get ( Read more... )

Okay. So I ended up going to ladies night by myself so I planned on not drinking very much. Later on my friend R***e shows up and we end up taking my car to her house and I was going to stay the night at her house so I could get a little bombed. M**t wasn't happy about it but he gave in because he knows R***e and he knows she doesn't really ( Read more... )

Why are designated drivers so hard to find? I'm going to be completely honest; I want to go out and get completely bombed but I won't if I have to drive. I will have 2 very spaced out beers. The rest of the time I will be drinking Coke. Why can't I ever get any of my "friends" to go out? You all are in your mid twenties; you're not fucking ( Read more... )

I have started dressing differently. I just bought 4 goth outfits from Hot Topic. I will get them on the 18th. I can't wait! I have always loved the goth look I just never really did it out of respect for my parents while I was living under their roof. They don't care for it at all. I remember I always used to wear black jeans and heavy metal ( Read more... )

I saw J***e and J***s last night at Bike Nights. First time I have seen them since he tried to kill himself at my house. It was very hard seeing them. They were just as happy as can be not giving a damn about how bad they hurt me. Why is it always me that dwells on things and hurt so bad? For once, why can't I be the heartless bitch and not ( Read more... )

My kitty that I have had since I was 10 that lived at my parents house had to be put down yesterday. She stopped eating last Wednesday, quit drinking water and stopped going to the bathroom. I can't believe all the weight she had lost. She wasn't in any pain but we didn't want her to get to the point where she couldn't get up anymore. We knew ( Read more... )

J***e and J***s, I dedicate this song to you.Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies ( Read more... )

You say I over stepped my bounds?!?! Just because I grabbed his face?!?! Oh my God!! How pathetic can you be!??! How dare you?!?! I'm not the one who came into YOUR home, took all YOUR medication and try to kill myself. I believe that is what is called over stepping your bounds. Screw you!! I wish you both a life time of misery and I hope ( Read more... )

I went to the doctor yesterday about my back. I was in a car wreck 8 years ago and my back has been screwed up since. It was just stiffness for the most part so I didn't think much of it. Now, I'm in agony. I made the mistake of lifting a few heavy things at work which has made it a lot worse. The stuff didn't look really heavy but boy, was I ( Read more... )