Comments | jolfolfille: Waiting.

jolfolfille

Waiting.

Aug 25, 2008 10:38

So. Last night I talked to James, and I asked him for one more chance. I guess it was more like begging... I don't know. I've never felt this empty and scared and vulnerable and pathetic in my life.

I'm begging a boy who barely feels anything for me to be with me again so I can show him I can be whatever he wants, because I am too scared to live ( Read more... )

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topsyturvy August 25 2008, 15:33:20 UTC

Oh honey, I hope everything works out the way it should. Please don't be scared. ♥

jolfolfille August 25 2008, 15:43:58 UTC

Thanks. I don't even know how it should work out - I'm so completely in love with him, and he doesn't really know if he wants to be with me (he says he still likes me and he enjoys being WITH me, but he's not sure if he wants to actually be my boyfriend anymore). And I don't know how to get over him if he breaks my heart all over again. I had it taped back together when I asked him for one more chance, and if he says no... gah. I don't even know.

But thank you. <3 I hope everything works out somehow too.

redtracksuit August 25 2008, 19:12:41 UTC

I'm sorry I'm just now responding, I've been away from LJ for a couple of days.

I hope things go okay with James. I'm sorry to hear about what happened. :( *hugs*

jolfolfille August 25 2008, 22:06:59 UTC

Aw, thanks, Dana. <3 It made me smile to see that you care and stuff. ^^; I consider you a close internet friend (moooostly 'cause of DCook, but still :D) and it pleased me to get this comment. <3

It was a really really awful two days, but he did decide to give me another chance, so yay! We had a very good talk and a good day, so I'm really happy at the mo'... and hopefully it will work this time. :D *hugs back!*

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jolfolfille August 25 2008, 22:37:59 UTC

I have learned that lesson, believe me. :( I know it's not healthy, and I didn't mean for it to happen, but the way that my life has played out for the past six months... it just got to the point where he was all I could depend on, and he was the only thing that remained good in my life. But now I'm beginning to get my life back in order, and I know that it's a bad thing to need him so much, so I think I'll be okay. I can't help loving him so much, though.

I don't know.