So... This summer has been dull, but in the best way possible. I have now been single for over 4 months. I am lonely, but damnit its the only way i can be for a while. I need to be alone to work out the issues I havent gotten past. I am still hurting and trying to hurt others, and I am ( Read more... )

I have a lot to say about the last 3 years of my life ( Read more... )

I found this crud online. interesting to say the least.
• Do help her screen potential beaus from an online dating service. Don't make it your part-time job to find her the right match.

• Do cherish and be caring toward her new baby. Don't become the emergency babysitter every Thursday night if you don't want to.

• Do let her date your brother. Don' ( Read more... )

I stood there in the strange bar with my black jeans and
deep red t-shirt. I felt once again as a teen rebelling against the system. I
felt the rock flow through my veins, but this time it was different.  This time I was 47 days away from being legal
to drink. This time I am attending college and have my own car. This time I
drove more than 3 hours to ( Read more... )

I sit on the cold cement bench outside the pathetic building they call a dorm. I pay to live in this shithole i think to myself, so running away would be frivalous and ridiculous. I light up another clove cigarette as the air begins to feel a slight colder temperature. I inhale with a passion, as if it were the only thing in my life worth living ( Read more... )

There is a man that sits at the end of the table. He can smell the scent of omelets in the air, along with the wondrous other smells of breakfast. He feels the crisp cloth napkin in his lap as he drifts off into his own little world. He sits at the head of a table filled with people he calls family. He cannot hear their fast conversation and witty ( Read more... )

we cannot do great things,
we can only do little things with great love

i long for the day when things made more sense. when jobs were abundant, life wasn't so serious and people actually cared. College life is interesting.. I have friends that are crazy, fun, immature, and always around. somehow my room had established itself as the center of everyone's world. they come over unannounced, play guitar hero in my living ( Read more... )

I cant remember when I began falling, I only look back trying to think at which moment did I cross the line of fun into insane. I feel so lost, so sad and so ANGRY. I dont feel like I have a right to feel anymore.  and sometimes I guess i wish i couldnt so that maybe I wouldnt be haunted by guilt. So I wouldnt live everyday wondering how life could ( Read more... )

I sit out and look into the abyss of the night sky. I see the leaves starting to turn and fall. I smoke another Clove, and contemplate my inner most feelings. Why do I feel so different. I am not the same girl i was this summer. I am no longer carefree, which I wasnt really before, but I was a bit more happy. I was a bit more grounded, or a bit ( Read more... )