Well i find time to write out my frustrations, and tell the world that my life sucks and im tired of acting like its all good the truth is that my life has no meaning in it, it has no luck in it, barely has a love of her own to call anymore, things are going down hill, ive been in the hospital for six days at enloe with the medical shit thats going ( Read more... )

Yes for all that don't know Kimi had a boy, 9 1/2 lbs. His name is Conner Morgan Russel, congrats to her and Austin, they have a family now... Im proud of her for taking all the right steps and being the best role model, she has more incentives and more nerves than me i tell you that....But i just wanted to say im proud of her she is a mom now, it ( Read more... )

she breaths again, anyways thought that was a good opener, i often forget that i have this journal, but i remembered today, thats a shock i remembered something.anyways just a few thoughts Im alright, i guess few problems,especially in the marriage issue of mine,but hey kimi is having a baby, thats pretty neat i think, congrats to her and Austin. ( Read more... )

to feel within the nothingness of when your soul dies, you ask who are u and what are u and i know as well..........its an emotional part experience inside and out...

todays the day of nothingness...........i wanted to thank every one that responds to my emotional acts of life......... thank you

I write again about the nothingness of my emotional distriss misery, complicated, unfocused and unwashed away with the shit that lies within me, like my soul will never be free from purgatory,more like a bird with its wings clipped, but at this point i wouldnt even know how to fly, or even have the strength....reading back upon the chapters of ( Read more... )

may i ever care at this point in my life, so angry, is not the exact wort to pinpoint it either i don't know what im am anymore.. just lost i guess i can't really turn to anyone cus i know know one can understand the things i have been through what im going through, sure we all have been through things but i have been through some pretty horrible ( Read more... )

everyday seems never to get better, pain seems persistant with each day that begins and ends pain comes and nevers seems to go just dull itself enough just to know its still there waiting and not away completley, makes me wonder why we were ever put here, like were are expermenental lab rats that they ( who ever at this point) can inflict pain upon ( Read more... )

boring day, time has ran fast today, not much to tell on a hot an boring day.......atleast i am not mad like before i guess everything was a misunderstanding as usual....

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