Im in uhhh what do you call it? rut. yeah, a rut. i've never felt so worthless in my life, who knew that doing something everyday and getting paid and being able to do things with that money could make you feel worth anything. well it does. and ive been cruising that bum boat for way too long that ive gotten to the point where its becoming soooo ( Read more... )

MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 5 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im not expecting anything from anyone so dont worry BUUUUUT if you are feeling generous, i could really use some herb (activator, weed, pot... ya know). hahaha.

i was in the car with my sister, mom and niece (who is 10 by the way) and they had the radio on all loud listening to really crappy rap music or whatever you call that stuff and i just cant AT ALL grasp my mind around how people can really enjoy that crappy music. ITS THE WORST AND THE DUMBEST!! i hate that i live in a world that has such bad taste ( Read more... )

the power might go out, i can hear the rain and wind and the tvs just went out. i will soon venture outside and into a car and into a less stable house haha. it'll be fun. i wish you could hear this. im doing better then my past experiences have shown. i should be proud of myself to not let this silly thing get to me. i should. i am. i am... uh ( Read more... )

hmmm well im not sure what to say on this thing any more. i dont have the opportunity to sit around my house and thing of all the terrible things in my life and write about them because im not sitting at home thinking of all the terrible things in my life right now. im out having fun and being a complete bum. still havent been working got a job but ( Read more... )

hmm well alots been going on but at the same time nothings really been going on. i quit my job a week ago. havent been home very much havent slept here in about a week. been hanging out. freezing. had a fun halloween. now i got to go look for a new job. im gonna be a cop.

( good.times.are.rolling.my.way. )

i just read the last post i wrote and i ahve NO RECOLLECTION of writing that or why i wrote that. musta been drunk haha.

about an hour ago i was in a terrible mood and being really mean. i wasnt getting what i wanted so for some reason the imbalance that i live with in my brain became very evident and i was acting like a total baby and being stupid. soooo. i went for a walk and listened a Quentin Tarantino mix (thanks to craig), the beatles and violent femmes, smoked ( Read more... )

yeah ok im...something.
happy? satisfied? ignorant? forgetful?
i dont know what it is exactly but...
sometimes i think its better then before.
sometimes.

i still cant solve any of my problems,
im still herenothing really has changed but ( Read more... )