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i'm always suspicious and i always expect the worst. how do i stop?

the past week has been pretty rough on my body, and i'm pretty sure it will continue for a while. i've been a huge ball of nerves and all the worrying has my body flipping out. I feel sick every morning, i have a huge appetite but little desire to actually eat. i have been a lot more likely to break down and cry than ever ( Read more... )

i had the most detailed dreams last night it was ridiculous. that hasn't happened to me in a while. none were good, all were annoying.

i'm so frustrated with everything right now.

i'm jealous of everyone who has great things going on in their life right now, because i feel totally lost. in every aspect.

no, i don't care to elaborate.

lots has happened since the last time i posted for real. and by lots i mean...some ( Read more... )

where would you like to see this? (if at all. ha.)


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so after 40 minutes of nervously stirring my drink, trembling and feeling like i was going to be sick, i gathered enough courage to be a big girl about it, but why do i still feel sick?

fucking sweet.