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the past week has been pretty rough on my body, and i'm pretty sure it will continue for a while. i've been a huge ball of nerves and all the worrying has my body flipping out. I feel sick every morning, i have a huge appetite but little desire to actually eat. i have been a lot more likely to break down and cry than ever.
i got bitched at at work again and had to pay the store $70. my paycheck is only a bit more than that. Does it make sense to anyone in the world other than my boss to NOT mark the items that are on sale? i'm so sick of the shop and i feel like a complete outcast there. i'm not a salesperson and i have no desire to convince some poor guy to spend $125 on a belt when he could go to any other store in buffalo and get a better looking one for 1/4 or 1/3 the cost. i'm not cheap, but how can you sell something with no selling points? it was made in italy, woo fucking hoo. my boss has horrible taste sometimes and basically doesn't know how to order clothing to keep the product moving and the store stocked. she puts together awful clothing combinations. she left yesterday and told me to put out a bunch of new stock. and "be creative". i'm pretty sure she will hate everything i did because she is so into things looking funky and not well put-together. I am basically just terrified of going to work now because i feel like i am going to get yelled at.
my job at EFS is basically a nightmare too. i have no control over the kids and no drive to actually work at gaining control. I thought i was doing better at first, but all of a sudden i'm just quiet and indifferent again. I feel like a jerk even being there since i'm not much help when it comes to problems and calming everyone down. i feel like a complete outcast there too.
working both of these jobs isn't HARD, but it's draining on me because i just don't belong and i worry for the first 4 hours of the day before i go to work.
hopefully soon i will have something more fitting. we'll see.
i am driving to my parents house again this weekend. tonight. i am going to a play tomorrow with my parents and having my wrist looked at on monday since i am pretty sure i have some sort of tendonitis or carpal tunnel that is just worsening by the week. hopefully i will be able to get some sort of work done too. the thought of driving again this weekend and being stressed out about coming back already has me on edge. maybe it will be a good weekend, who the fuck knows.
i got bitched at at work again and had to pay the store $70. my paycheck is only a bit more than that. Does it make sense to anyone in the world other than my boss to NOT mark the items that are on sale? i'm so sick of the shop and i feel like a complete outcast there. i'm not a salesperson and i have no desire to convince some poor guy to spend $125 on a belt when he could go to any other store in buffalo and get a better looking one for 1/4 or 1/3 the cost. i'm not cheap, but how can you sell something with no selling points? it was made in italy, woo fucking hoo. my boss has horrible taste sometimes and basically doesn't know how to order clothing to keep the product moving and the store stocked. she puts together awful clothing combinations. she left yesterday and told me to put out a bunch of new stock. and "be creative". i'm pretty sure she will hate everything i did because she is so into things looking funky and not well put-together. I am basically just terrified of going to work now because i feel like i am going to get yelled at.
my job at EFS is basically a nightmare too. i have no control over the kids and no drive to actually work at gaining control. I thought i was doing better at first, but all of a sudden i'm just quiet and indifferent again. I feel like a jerk even being there since i'm not much help when it comes to problems and calming everyone down. i feel like a complete outcast there too.
working both of these jobs isn't HARD, but it's draining on me because i just don't belong and i worry for the first 4 hours of the day before i go to work.
hopefully soon i will have something more fitting. we'll see.
i am driving to my parents house again this weekend. tonight. i am going to a play tomorrow with my parents and having my wrist looked at on monday since i am pretty sure i have some sort of tendonitis or carpal tunnel that is just worsening by the week. hopefully i will be able to get some sort of work done too. the thought of driving again this weekend and being stressed out about coming back already has me on edge. maybe it will be a good weekend, who the fuck knows.