Ok, maybe SUCKER isn't the correct word to say is written across my forehead.. maybe hopeful is better?? We'll see.. spent part of the weekend with v.. after telling him on the 3rd, that that was the day I had decided on back in March when I got out of the hospital, as the day I would give up. And I tried to (after being called a baby killer the ( Read more... )

Seriously you would think that I loooove bein ghurt. You;d think that I loved having my heart ripped out, ripped up and stomped on... hmmm.. maybe someday I'll learn when to just let things go...
~*~*~*~*~*~*deep, heart breakin, chest crackin SIGH*~*~*~*~*...

YAY!! i finally have MSN!!!!
Whoever wants to add me to their list please do so!!!! (God I feel like a little kid being so cited about it.. it's been available for what the past 9 years or something??? ha ha ha) Anyways, it's nice to be back up to date!!

After sleeping on it last night, i've come to a quiet place within myself.. I'm ok with us not being together. It sucks that it ended like this, but there will definitely be no more effort put in.. .no more time wasted, so to speak..

Firsst off I'd like to say that I want ot hunt down J and kick her stupid ass all around town for playing dirty, trying to make me look bad- but whatever, in the end, she looks like the idiot because she is. I'm so glad I kept the fact that I knew she was fucking his 'friends' (in v's world, EVERY person he knows is his friend, but whatever) but ( Read more... )

smoked a cigarette --- NOT IN 8 DAYS ( Read more... )

b>You Are Opium!

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I just realized that I mentioned my 2 kittens in passing when talkign about my reasons for quitting, but I really shoudl go into more detail!! They are so freakin' cute!!!! I got one last Monday and the other on Friday. I named the first one Isis (she's a tabby about 11 wks old) and the other one is all black about 2 months old and I named her ( Read more... )

Yup, that's right- I'm a quitter. Well, I'm trying to be one anyways...I haven't had a smoke since around 10:30 on Monday night, and now it's Wednesday at almost 1pm- so far so good.. kind of feel like ASS, but that's usually a given anyways, right?It's sad that I'm quitting for monetary reasons and the health of my kittens- not my own health.. I' ( Read more... )

What a weekend!! ( Still no birthday sex- my choice though, but that should be taken care of tonight- ha ha ha)I had such a blast since thursday, that I am definitely hurting because of it... We partied until the sun came up both days and vegged out the rest of the time watching movies and shit.. dabbled in the snow this weekend ( hence the ease of ( Read more... )