QUITTER
Yup, that's right- I'm a quitter. Well, I'm trying to be one anyways...I haven't had a smoke since around 10:30 on Monday night, and now it's Wednesday at almost 1pm- so far so good.. kind of feel like ASS, but that's usually a given anyways, right?It's sad that I'm quitting for monetary reasons and the health of my kittens- not my own health.. I've always been kind f sickly, so the fact that I was slowly killing myself with the chemicals in cigarettes didn't really matter.. I think I may even start going to the tanning bed- or at least the Mystic Spray on tan place.. I'm tired of how pasty white I am- especially next to Vito- he is looking smokin hot all tanned and shit from his trip in Mexico... well, he's always tanned and shit so what ever that damned italian blood... But things have been good since he got back.. no trouble so far, and he remembered the TEQUILA for me and Mel.. so he's definitely in the good books... and he shagged me like a champ since he's gotten back.. He spent the whole week at my place so every night he slept with me in y bed.. it was definitely nice.. I brought up the fact that since things are so great, how come we aren't just back together- i love him, he loves me, we don't want to be with anyone else etc.. so whats up??? He turns around and points out that sure, everything's fine right now, when we're spending all this time together, but lets see how it goes when he;'s back at work.. I've bailed on him and us in the past... shit.. good point... ouch, but still a good point... sigh, so lets see how it goes.. I'm going to his sisters wedding, not as his date since he's in the wedding party, but I'm still going and that's gotta count for something right?? Actually, he didn't have to be at work until 10:30 last night so he came and saw me for a couple of hours before going in, so that was a nice surprise.. Until I got all bent out of shape by some broad that he works with.. Well, he spends more time with people from work than with me, and this is someone that he went away with for may 24 (she didn't go to mexico though.. i know really that I have nothign to worry about, but I was just a buddy of his before we got together.. I'm sure I'll be fine once I meet her... she better not be hot!! Actually who cares if she is, Vito loves me, not some cow from the plant!!! She's probably fien, but I want her to meet me and like me so that she wont go after him- especially sicne we're not officially together.. I always ahve to make something out of nothing.. oh well, whatever happens, happens right? Anyways... work sucks, but I'm leaving at 4 to go to the doctors (yes, another appt) but hopefully he'll refer me to a specialist this time.. I'm so tired of being sick- if it's not one thing, its another.. sigh..