Depressed and worried. the show must go on.

Your Actual Problem
Depleted vitality has created an intolerance for any further stimulation, or demands on her resources. This sense of powerlessness, combined with frustration that she cannot control events, subjects her to agitation, irritation, and acute distress. She tries to escape these by stubborn insistence on her own point of view, but the ( Read more... )

alas, once again ive made an ass of myself at jerry's party, from yellin at this guy telling him his girlfriend was a whore. to arguing with ellen and her slapping me in the face. and then taking me in the bathroom where she cried about how in her last relationship she really did get her ass beat daily by that mother fucker. she even said she just ( Read more... )

im more in love with eric now than ever. im so glad we resolved what little issues had been bothering me. i dont fuck wit chaz no more. im still scared of many things that im not yet ready to discuss. and even tho i cant find a job and ive been broke as fuck, im still happy and im still happy with eric ( Read more... )

Im worthless ( Read more... )

The sweat builds, and i feel it creep around my breasts.
i know everything i do not know
i feel every ounce of evey feeling that isnt mine
i live in what seems to be a box of black and shit brown
loving hating myself, yet loving myself anyways.
dwelling on a past that does not belong to me
Everyday i die
everyday i die
a different way everyday
i ( Read more... )

It sucks because i dont understand why i sometimes get the way i do. one thing triggers it, i dwell upon it.. then it leaves my mind. im not really thinking of anything, but i feel so low and depressed and picture blowing my brains out.. cutting some more... fuckin i dont get it. im afraid to have a gun around the house, i sometimes feel like im ( Read more... )

I took a long hard look naked in the mirror today. i no sometimes i say i dont look like i weigh 160, and ppl don believe it (cuz i mean, i suppose i am "well-proportioned" and i look decent with clothes on) but i REALLY do look like it. i look fucking disgusting. i would be fucking super model worthy gorgeous if i could just drop 35 lbs. and its ( Read more... )

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i made him cry again tonight ( Read more... )