This was a huge blast from the past... im going to have to update this really soon... but in the meantime i just wanted to say hi to my old LJ friends! MUCH LOVE to you all!

I want to be happy. I want to feel free to be me all the time. I want to come home to my man every night, the ones who loves me more than life, and would give up everything to have me, the one that i love just as much. I want a home and a family of my own. I want a baby who looks just like his daddy, but has my eyes.. but has his daddys dark hair ( Read more... )

Woah, it has been so long... Life has been so damn busy and tiring and crazy that i have not had time to think, much less time to function and sit down and write out all the crap going on ( Read more... )

I didn't realize how long it had been since i had last wrote in here.. I guess sometimes life just gets away from you and you lose track. Life has been a roller coaster ride these days, like usual. But things are going along as well as can be, so for that, i can be grateful ( Read more... )

Just real quick... things are looking up today i guess.... better than my last entry ( Read more... )

You know, there is that saying that when life gives you lemons, you make lemonade. Well, damn, I have enough fucking lemonade to last me ten years and then some ( Read more... )

you know, i am beginning to hate ebing alone. I used to love the peace and quiet it afforded me, and now i wish for anything but. I know i am alone right now because i have to be. I am sick and cant go out, and not many people really want to be too close to me. I am supposed to be at a concert right now with really good friends, but i cant go out, ( Read more... )

Tis the day before thanksgiving, and i am doing nothing. Nice huh? I have been under a major quarantine the past couple days, they thought i had mono and i just found out about an hour ago that i don't. However, my white blood cell count is totally out of range and my doc is calling to discuss what might be going on about 5 or so. I am kinda ( Read more... )

Mike and i had the best conversation we have had in so long. Basically we told each other that we are still very much in love, although we have no idea how to span the bridge between us. Just like me, he has apparently tried to date and failed because it was not each other. WE both said that we don't want love if it is not like it was with us. When ( Read more... )

Been insane lately.. I am sick as hell right now, I have a serious lung infection and tonsilitus, so it has been a crazy road ( Read more... )