i apologize. really i do. i hate that i keep doing this. i want my eddie back.

running...running...running...
sorry.
its been real.
xox.

i hate u. i love u. but i hate u more now a days. y cant u just leave me alone. stay out of my life. im fine when ur not around. but once u step foot back in town, my whole world shatters. everytime i see u my heart breaks all over again. partially, i hate u because u stand for every failure in my life. when i think about u, really think about us, ( Read more... )

i broke my nose. i deserved it. really i did. karma is a bitch. purple is a really great color on me though. blackhause is not. cant wait to see what fucked up shit i do this weekend. tune it kids.
xox.

so...i almost killed the easter bunny. but then we saved his life. im awesome. really i am. lol. i suck. love me.

i suck at life sooo bad. i hope u never find out about that. i hope i never do that again, but i know its not as easy as that. if u could ignore that part of me, i think we would be very happy together.
xox.

ridiculous.

whenever i think about how completely all knowing matty is, i get this kinda laughing/crying thing going on. lol. how can someone just always be right? does he really know me that well? or am i just that fuckin predictable? well matty, ya got me again lol. i should just ask u what the outcome is gunna be n actually listen to u. it would save me a ( Read more... )

i miss the excitement. the fun & adventure. the extremes. the dizziness. being terrified but jumping in head first anyways. i miss that feeling of loving life. being glad that im alive. being happy to work everyday. being happy in general. im missing excitement. im displaying too much emotions. im letting my fears get to me. im letting my world ( Read more... )

i just erased everything i wrote. i decided that i dont need to get caught up in ANYTHING right now. that im just gunna have fun like i always manage to do, n if ur down for the ride, id love ta have u. if not, thats life i guess. man, ive been a real moron. i gotta stop relapsing into faggy mode. matty was so right, its not flattering. im way to ( Read more... )