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i miss the excitement. the fun & adventure. the extremes. the dizziness. being terrified but jumping in head first anyways. i miss that feeling of loving life. being glad that im alive. being happy to work everyday. being happy in general. im missing excitement. im displaying too much emotions. im letting my fears get to me. im letting my world fall down, n not bothering to build it up again. im letting things get to me. i stopped caring about myself. i need to get this back. the piece of me that ive lost. n i need to realize i wont find it in someone else, ill only find it in myself. i think that was my problem. i was waiting for u to come save me, whoever u may be. but i was wrong, only i can do that. i need to find that part of me thats truly happy again. bc this shit is gunna kill me. the drugs,the drinking. & screw the "relationships". i don't need anymore disappointments. n i don't need to disappoint anyone else. i need to be by myself for a while. i need to get the other one out of my heart b4 i can love anyone again.
xox.
xox.