im not waving, im drowning
i hate u. i love u. but i hate u more now a days. y cant u just leave me alone. stay out of my life. im fine when ur not around. but once u step foot back in town, my whole world shatters. everytime i see u my heart breaks all over again. partially, i hate u because u stand for every failure in my life. when i think about u, really think about us, i stumble across the fact that the only man ive ever really loved, the only guy i ever really gave a damn about, the only one who wasnt replaceable, cant stand the fuckin thought of me now. that makes me run from any guy who starts to care, bc i know ive got nothing to offer anyone, bc u took it all untill there wasnt even enough left for me to keep giving you. everything i gave u u locked up in a trunk, n at first i thought that meant something wonderful, untill i realized u were hiding it away. putting it where it belongs, in the shadows of our past. and if i were to find out u got rid of every memory when u left, along with everything in that trunk, i feel as though my sould would bleed itself dry. uve killed me. i have nothing left. i cant fight back anymore. im not waving this time, im drowning.