It scares me that on some level I feel like Aaron and I really are good for each other. I think we're capable of making each other happier and better people. But then I also know that we're capable of hurting each other to the extent that he could end up a horrible boyfriend and I could end up hating myself completely and destroying all that's ( Read more... )

Priority # 1 = K A T I E

Don't have much to say for a change. :) Aaron has been sick, poor thing. Hopefully he feels better SOON. It sucks to be miserable for days on end. Anyways, still working on being happy, healthy, and hyper more regularly. It feels good to not have drama, tears, and so many worries. And even better to have smiles, fun, and confidence. :) ( Read more... )

What an interesting weekend. I know you probably don't check this ever, so I figured I'd update it for my own sake. What have I gotten out of this so far? How have I felt? What am I thinking now? Well, it's simple ( Read more... )

Not the song, though it's catchy. :) One step back, two steps forward. It's all good. :)

Today is just another tomorrow. And tomorrow when things are supposed to be different, it will just be another today. And when it becomes another yesterday, we'll pretend it didn't matter at all because we can start new again. And that, that is how life quickly disappears and becomes absolutely meaningless. You think that's pessimistic till you ( Read more... )

If you really had three wishes, what would you ask for? Mine would be ( Read more... )

I really don't wanna have to think ahead right now. For once, I feel happy and want to relax and enjoy something in my life. But I can't, at all. Law school apps are do way too soon, and I have to figure out where my scores can take me. And where they'll take me away from ( Read more... )

Last night Aaron and I exchanged gifts. That went well. :) He liked his bracelet (and alcohol, of course), and the poster will look good on his wall. It meant something too though that the card I gave him sorta caught him off guard, I think. He said it meant a lot to him. As for the other way around (not that I would have been upset if he had ( Read more... )

Maybe I'd feel better then, eh? Fuck this shit, so tired of feeling miserable. So tired of being frustrated. I can't be happy, I'm just not fucking capable. I should just let Aaron go away and be happier without me. What's better - Katie as your girlfriend, or the freedom do fuck whoever and have threesomes? Duh. That's a hard pick ,isn't it ( Read more... )