Not So Distant Future
I really don't wanna have to think ahead right now. For once, I feel happy and want to relax and enjoy something in my life. But I can't, at all. Law school apps are do way too soon, and I have to figure out where my scores can take me. And where they'll take me away from..
I thought about the University of Michigan, it is a good law school. But do I want to be stuck in Michigan forever? Or if I began here, would transferring in a year be difficult? Would staying in Michigan even manage to keep us together?
If I move to California (or WA or AZ or ?!), what is going to happen? Am I going to be happy? Where can I get accepted? Who or what is going to keep me sane during 1L? I wish that you were going through it with me, and I wonder if maybe in a year you will be. But even then, will that take us further apart or closer together? If I waited a year..? I have no idea, neither of us do as to what we're doing in the future, it seems. I can't make my decisions based solely on you, but I will keep you as an extra factor in my considerations.
And honestly, baby. I have no idea what to do. I can't give up at this point in my life, you know how afraid I am of failure and being stuck. I know how different I felt in Hawaii and California, I felt like there was more to see, to do, a reason to go out and enjoy my life, and not feel constrained to the past and my family's lifestyle. It's more expensive, but there's a reason why. Mabye I'm idealizing how I felt out there though, but..Well, might as well bring up the other thing I've been thinking about. Nothing like whoa important, don't get freaked out. :P
I do have a plane ticket for wherever/whatever/whenever (but I need to schedule it before the end of the summer). Ideally, I want to be able to use it with you, either Spring Break or Summer Vacation. I know you don't have a lot of time off though, and that it costs a decent amount of money to go out West..But I couldn't imagine going on vacation to Hawaii or California without you. :/ *sigh*
I thought about the University of Michigan, it is a good law school. But do I want to be stuck in Michigan forever? Or if I began here, would transferring in a year be difficult? Would staying in Michigan even manage to keep us together?
If I move to California (or WA or AZ or ?!), what is going to happen? Am I going to be happy? Where can I get accepted? Who or what is going to keep me sane during 1L? I wish that you were going through it with me, and I wonder if maybe in a year you will be. But even then, will that take us further apart or closer together? If I waited a year..? I have no idea, neither of us do as to what we're doing in the future, it seems. I can't make my decisions based solely on you, but I will keep you as an extra factor in my considerations.
And honestly, baby. I have no idea what to do. I can't give up at this point in my life, you know how afraid I am of failure and being stuck. I know how different I felt in Hawaii and California, I felt like there was more to see, to do, a reason to go out and enjoy my life, and not feel constrained to the past and my family's lifestyle. It's more expensive, but there's a reason why. Mabye I'm idealizing how I felt out there though, but..Well, might as well bring up the other thing I've been thinking about. Nothing like whoa important, don't get freaked out. :P
I do have a plane ticket for wherever/whatever/whenever (but I need to schedule it before the end of the summer). Ideally, I want to be able to use it with you, either Spring Break or Summer Vacation. I know you don't have a lot of time off though, and that it costs a decent amount of money to go out West..But I couldn't imagine going on vacation to Hawaii or California without you. :/ *sigh*