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I feel really weird lately. Like shitty weird and really deeply unhappy. I can't explain it at all only that it's like, actually hurt. Things are not turning out how I wanted them. Nothing is really going that well at all. I don't know what to expect from any of the steps I take further into my life. The only thing I can be content with is ( Read more... )

This is my ode, a response to my night of absolute drunken self exploitation and the most serious case of alcohol poisoning I've had the ability of letting 5 of my closest friends see. I was retarded. And now I want to die. I've never felt this shitty in my entire life from what I remember and I'm just wrecked. Physically and emotionally. I did ( Read more... )

It was absolutely freezing today, to a ridiculous standard for the way it has been the rest of the month. Anyhow, I hit up Central Park to go to strawberry fields and went to the John Lennon memorial vigil. It like, refreshed me. I needed something like that, as simplistic as it was, that was such like raw emotion of happiness and peace based on ( Read more... )

My life is shitty, I hate college, I don't want to do anything with my life because I hate it and blah blah blah... I miss Madeline Hurley and Robert Bassett with all my heart and soul and Kayla Buchholz, if you don't come visit I'll throw you in a lake.

I'm not happy
I'm just loosing my mind

The city is stressful and lonely, but I wouldn't want to be home. I just read my entire live journal and was amazed how far/not far at all I've come in say, 2, 2 and a 1/2, years. I need to just, breathe, and even more, sleep. I really don't like Hunter that much. I can't pinpoint it, it just doesn't do anything for me. I've made a friend. A ( Read more... )

I moved to the city. I go to Hunter. I'm home a lot. I miss my friends. I miss Hannah. I need a job. I like my apartment. I'm not unhappy. I'm just sort of lonely. But I shouldn't complain.

I have an apartment.
I have weird day dreams.
I have insomnia.
I have a lip ring that's infected & shifting southward.
I have no sense of what I wanna do in college.
I have a clear head lately.

and I feel okay.