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HAPPY PRIDE! I am a proud bisexual woman :)

Welcome to the world, Elijah Abraham. You are so lucky to be where you are, around so much love and compassion. If I were you I would hurry to be born so I could be around them too. I can't wait to get to know you and I already love you so much!
Auntie Ellyn

Sometimes it's not easy for me to be grateful. I have a mother who hates me and started abusing me from a very early age. She put on a good show, though, so my dad never believed she was as bad as I said. She convinced my brother and sister I was disabled in some way so I constantly have to try to prove I'm capable and bright to no avail. I have ( Read more... )

I don't think I really want to live anymore. I don't really have anything to live for.

I'm angry, which is actually a good thing. I have a very hard time expressing anger thanks to a very abusive mother who would have hurt me more if I tried to. After a while I just stopped feeling it except for rare instances when I felt boiling rage rise up to be pushed down again; that's dangerous feeling ( Read more... )

So yesterday was my last day at work and I was crying and hugging everyone then I get home and find out my grandfather died. Even though he was 93 and it was a matter of time I've been crying off and on for 2 days. I'm leaving tomorrow for the funeral and will be back Monday night. As my Aunt Joanne said in an email may he rest in peace.

 I can't quite remember when my mother started abusing me but I know I was very young, and I know that in the eighteen years I lived with her I never felt safe. People who are abused have their own reality, and the true tragedy of child abuse is that it never really goes away. You can fight, survive, recover, but while the effects fade in time they ( Read more... )

Can I hold you?
Just for a minute.

Now that I know it's you
after all this time,
all this space.

I need to feel your body,
experience your smell,
hear your breathing,
taste your skin.

It has been over five years
since you left.
Again.

I've cried,
trembled,
tried to fill
that piece of my heart
that is you
and failed.

When you wake up
and walk out in the morning
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So many questions in my mind after seeing him on Wednesday. I don't think he's married or in a serious relationship because I really think he'd tell me. He seemed happy to see me and HE was the first one who said hi. . . I followed him in the building but he said hi first AND he repeated my new address over and over. WIll I just run into him again ( Read more... )