ill be your cure; i know that i can be the medicine you need;
i know im strong enough to carry us through.
ill be your healer, in my shining armor;
my love is strong enough.

im broken.
ive never been so unhappy/miserable in my whole entire life.
every minute im awake, i hate myself.
this, the life i have to lead now, is my punishment.
i dont have my heart. its yours. always. always.

a picture is worth a thousand words.

right now some of mine are: thankful, gracious, awe, happy, joyous.
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a week ago i completed my last exam for my bachelor's of social work. i am now wearing my graduation ring &frankly, i think its awesome. at work, ive been given three new youth orientation programs to develop and execute. i have a binder worth of reading. i thought i was done school so i didnt have to read anymore. well, only leisurely. oh ( Read more... )

he said:
understanding is an action, a process
you are avoiding your own emotions&it hit me. understanding is one of my positive attributes which i am thankful for ( Read more... )

my soul actually hurts. i need to believe that there is a heaven. my ( Read more... )

one. the only holidays i truly celebrate are Christmas and Easter; i solely acknowledge all other holidays. i realized this as i typically work all other holidays but draw the line at Christmas and Easter. it isnt that i am money driven or anything like that, its because id prefer being at work and feeling productive versus being at home in my ( Read more... )

im alone, once again.

this. this is happiness.

im scared that tonight, ill end up crying myself to sleep.
scared as in this just might be the death of me terrified.