I haven’t felt free like that even again. I’m not even free in my own dreams. I’m always dreaming of my old house, and not the one I have now lived in for years. I have happy moments though, of course, but never ones that make me free. I so wish that I could have that feeling again, and rewind time like I rewind the reel in my head. I ( Read more... )

i accidently took 1,080 mg of caffeine...i feel funny...oh great, i just read that its like drinking four cups of coffee at the same time..great..eeeeeeeeeeeeee!

am i going to explode? i hope not..

i used one of my friends chracteristics for the characteristics of the main character. guess who it is ( Read more... )

wow. my life is hard right now. ive never been this out of control before. i usually have a grip on things. the smallest thing will help,even if its just someone to grip onto

i miss my friends, my loves.

p.s. i was reading through my old entries, and i had fogotten that the one entitled Cellar Door, had even happened. it was nice to read.

The rain spattered through the viewless courtyard, and I awoke to a gurgling sound of the stagnant water below. Having slept just shy of twenty minutes, I turned to look at my alarm clock, just in time to see the night become day. It was midnight, and here I was jotting down my actions after I had completed them. But I had waited for this night. ( Read more... )

Damn, shit, dick, fuck, and even butt; these are a few of the '4 letter words', all 'taboos' within our society. All of these words have an equal amount of appeal to me; none, but the 4 lettered word that I hate the most... is love. The uncertainty and sheer unpredictability of this word gives me a more negative connotation than a positive, ( Read more... )

well well well, look who decided to update....oh wait, thats me....so yeah, sorry this has been like a year since i last updated, but i have been way too lazyo to write about what is going on. "but dont fret yet!" "fred, tell 'em what they've won"..."they have won a re cap of sams life"....so here goes ( Read more... )

wow! why do i feel so old? i dont know, i mean i am only 18.5 years on june 25th..but hmm. i guess its cause i got my roommate today. her name is betsy..i hope she doesnt sell drugs like my older sisters first roommate..eek. You know i will really enjoy being in the city cssue i mean everything you need is right in one spot..kinda like an airplane ( Read more... )

Hmm so i got back from my college orientation at UIC yesterday around 8 and then went to bed and didnt wake up in my clothes until 10 this morning. more about UIC later... well sooo today i woke up and then kindu just hung around becasue i have work at 4 till close at Panera. So if you have a hankerin for some yummy food come on down to the Panera ( Read more... )

aYEarLayINGdOWn: nice comment ( Read more... )