my old best friend's mom died from breast cancer weds. i think my heart just broke a little bit. ive been really down all day, memories are floating in my head. im trying to think of a bad memory but there are none. she was like a second mom to me. when they moved i remember feeling so sad. when i found out she was sick, i sent her a card and when ( Read more... )

so i am lost. thanks for being so vague. no really. it seems as though i have wasted more than a month on POOP. haha. then you have the NERVE to ask me how my day was. it was crappy ok? bc of you. bc you ignore me and then you give me loads of attention later and its confusing. because im gorgeous one day and the next day you barely know me. ( Read more... )

i cannot handle her negativity. everytime i say something positive or uplifting she turns it around into something negative and i hate it. she actually DEFENDS being utterly negative all the time. its so depressing to be around. its not even in an amusing way, as though its her intention to make things less enjoyable so she can perpetuate her ( Read more... )

there are certain things about my family life that nobody can really understand. i think people take for granted how close they are to their families. the closest family member i have lives 3000 miles away ( Read more... )

this year is turning out to be amazing. i feel so much more laid back and happy. i wonder if others see a change in me or if its just a change in how i feel and im acting the same. sometimes i cover it up when im low ( Read more... )

i might go to lake chelan this weekend. :)

it has been an... eventful summer. i got very drunk last night, probably from chugging a glass of vodka. what a way to end the summer and i didnt even puke! neat. so now i have to pack, which i keep putting off bc im coming to the realization that im really going to get homesick and 75% of me doesnt want to leave. i had a confusing night last night ( Read more... )

i am going back to visit virginia tomarow. i am semi-nervous but also aware that i will only be around the people i love from virginia. im really excited to see my best friend and party and feel comfortable. its going to be an excellent finish to a superb summer. i feel so relaxed and happy. i am ready to go back to school tho. i miss my college ( Read more... )

this summers accomplishments ( Read more... )

i havent written here for a long time. all i have to say is that i am so giddy right now its sort of sickening. i wish i had gone to providence college now sort of. im so glad i dont need the west coast anymore. i partied pretty hard this weekend i wont lie and my head has been spinning, but i found someone. its not even serious, its like puppy ( Read more... )