it's so weird but tonight i realized how hard next year is going to be.. so fucking hard. for some reason i didn't see him around tonight, i got this panicky, sad feeling and i felt like i needed to see him and hear his voice and talk to him and look at him immediately. but next year, it will be like this 90% of the time and i am going to have to ( Read more... )

i'm so unsatisfi-able. i am always dissapointed with my results in my work, and even if i do good if most people did better than me, or even a few, it wasn't good enough. i worked really hard on that stupid ass bull shit chem project and getting 85% for some reason felt like the end of the world to me. i don't even want to talk about the stupid mid ( Read more... )

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so much going on lately.. its a little bit too much to bear.. homework in every subject, socials essay... chemistry test.. english reading.. spanish test.. math galore.. and on top of this workshop commitments, trying to desperately come up with enough money to go to the dominican for spring break ( Read more... )

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its so weird, because for the longest time...ok... since my brother's wedding in august 2003, i decided that i wasn't going to smoke pot or drink, at all. it was sort of like a new school resolution, cuz i knew i wasn't allowed that stuff at maxwell.. but after awhile, i kind of lost my motivation, in that i couldn't really figure out why i was ( Read more... )

i'm jealous!!!

i am such a jealous person and i am jealous right now and i am always jealous of something or someone and i am so jealous!! how come he never calls me?

so... volleyball season is over, and now i am in fitness and conditioning, and so on thursdays we say we are going on a "double galley loop".. but instead we just go get hot chocolate at the Galley! and this week it was so funny, it was me, katie, mina and vida, and while we were there the whole sr boys b-ball team ran by and saw us even tho we ( Read more... )

this is just a really cute moment.. i'm looking out off the main c balcony and there are like 20 guys doing their sr b-ball practice, running laps, its funny they go slow on the top and then sprint along the parking lot, its just really cute, all these guys, kento hirano, shafa youssefian, daruoush ghodrati, koly diabate, ismael diabate, robin ( Read more... )