so basicly, i haven't updated in a very long time, like damn! but i read thos comments from my last entry and i can honestly say i never knew that chelsea was wickid down about us. i realise she was upset, but it was honestly a few weeks and i wish i had handled it better but i had never been in the situation before. like i just had no way of ( Read more... )

basicly the hardest part of me attempting to not taklk to emma is that fact that jeff is all over her and she lieks to get high, and reaaalllllly out of control and horney aroudn him and honestly i just want to call every hour to make sures shes not fuckign him. i just want to not have to think about that ( Read more... )

That nasty habit i just can't break, that mix of last nights smoke and morning breath. I am an addict and i'm not sure if its hard to admit, but i can't get away from feelings and smells that spent three months torturing me. I make the smart choice now, and save my life. but i live 3 more months with it torturing me.

so basicly life has been going pretty well i mean im havign school problems i guess... fucking crazy ass miss longstreth (or whatever her name is) who i found out worked at pvpa for a little while... is like failing me for missing some school. a little harsh i think. so i have to make that up or i odn't graduate... ummmm been hanging out with ( Read more... )

the original baby bottle pop candy ( Read more... )

stop makign obnoxious rude comments in my journal. becuase they are not that witty at all. infact rather repedative and boring ( Read more... )

this is a letter to emma ( Read more... )

well today one of my best friends chris butterfield along with some friends of his including sean gould were called by the army and told that they will be leaving for training in missouri in june for four months and then to iraq for a year then to missouri again for four more months for training/counciling. basicly when it comes down to it... this ( Read more... )

i have been thinking, the reason why emma is so hard for me is becuase i was a at a point where i was so in love with her, like i had come to a point in the past month where i had gained a new respect for her life. this is assuming the mike thing didnt happen. that only made it worse. but in general after a year you would htink i would want to just ( Read more... )

wow its so hard to get over. to be totally honest i was watching the west side story and they hopped into bed with the door locked and it made me sad. i miss that. wow im kinda a loser. but im havign a hard time beign interested in anyone at all... im not even seeing girls as objects... so this whole fuckign bitches thing may be happening but its ( Read more... )