yeah im updating, what you gonna do about it? punk!

[ibethedonkey]

so basicly, i haven't updated in a very long time, like damn! but i read thos comments from my last entry and i can honestly say i never knew that chelsea was wickid down about us. i realise she was upset, but it was honestly a few weeks and i wish i had handled it better but i had never been in the situation before. like i just had no way of resisting emma. she had complete controll over me. and how i handled it was very selfish im sure. but i couldn't be with chelsea then... i was starting to realise that before emma came back into my life. so writing about how im deppressed about emma might be shitty. but i didn't know chelsea read this and i didn't know that she was taking it as hard as she apparently was. and i am very sorry. but i have recently hurt emma and i guess done the same thing. i was selfish and realised that the only way i could get her out of my life and move on was to stop all comunications with her. and while it was very hard on her it helped me alot. so i guess im a selfish bastard, but im only human and i was stuck in a shitty relationship.

Chelsea if you read this. I am very sorry for the way things happend. but i still wouldn't know how to handle it today...
and i think your awesome and had a great time at warped tour with ya'll!

on another note. crowd surfing is fun yet potentialy very dangerous. (see Eoin's painfully infected right elbow)