Not a ton has been going on here lately so I havent written not that it matter nobody reads this shit I write anyway. Self loathing. Self image diminishing. Who did it come to this?? Man I remember when I had such a high regard for myself. It is sad how all this just came on also immediately and out of nowhere. Soon not so much to my surprise I ( Read more... )

Man I was sick all damned day today. Ugh! I felt like damn it until bout 3pm. I hated to do nothing and lay on my ass on the couch. GGGgggrrrr... Well, I am good now but it is almost bed time, aint that some shyt. I hope I feel better tomorrow ( Read more... )

I dont have any idea of what to do now with my life. Man I have really hit it good this time. I can tell you this is the time when I will have to reflect for many years to come.
22 years old, no job, about to have to go home to my mothers, pregnant (yes I know who the father is), and doing nothing for myself....
what a world???

I once thought I had everything in life figured out and had everything going in the direction that I wanted it. I was perhaps mistaken... I admit I entered into all this life activity with the best intentions maybe a bit of naivity to go with it, but only in the pureset of fashions. Perhaps all my thinkings up to thias point were wrong. And perhaps ( Read more... )

I dont know what I did wrong.. Someone please tell me...

If it aint one thing it is another... Man do I hate people. I swear I do. Well, except all you guys and you know who you are and also you should know you arent counted in all that. My Bronco was broken into and most of my CDs were stolen. Nothing else though. How fucked up is that shyt?? I am SOO highly pissed. But fuck em and feed em fish heads ( Read more... )

Damn it feels like we went right from summer into fucking winter time just like that. Hated it!! I still have a cold and it seems to not want to leave me. Maybe if I stopped spreading the germs from my old man back to myself and vice versa we would get better. But to hell with that, I would have to stop kissing him and that aint about to happen.. ( Read more... )

Man Oh Man being the "unemployeed" really sucks ass. You know I always thought with my skills and well not to sound conceded, my good looks (lol), I could land a job no problem. I suppose it is the job market in a slump or some sort of an economic phase of some sort. Nevertheless, I am not going to get frustrated with it. What would be the use. 1st ( Read more... )

Starting off a new and wonderful weekend here on Friday. Great, Grand, and Wonderful. Things are finally starting to fall into place just as they should be. I dont suppose that life could get any better at this point. Well there are a few things I would still change around and a few things that dont go my way. Damned Taxes. Death. INS. Menstruation ( Read more... )

11 days sober... Whoa how different things are now with the absence of alcohol. I never actually thought I would get this clear headed again. Damn all the memories the come cascading in on me. I now remember what it was that 1st drive me to the bottle. Oh well there are too many of US whinning about what happened to US when we were kids. Fuck it I ( Read more... )