When you're chewing peppermint gum and you inhale through your nose and you get that of so fresh feeling? mmmmmm ( Read more... )

I was out taking pictures today and the wind was insane. I do hope there wasn't too much camera shake. I think w/ a shutter speed of 250, that shouldn't happen. hehe. There was this dog by the rail road tracks, an older grey and black spotted girl, she kept me company for the half hour I fought the wind to find the best shots. She made me want a ( Read more... )

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I've been so distracted and so engulfed in my own private pity party lately that I didn't even notice that leaves were appearing on the bush outside my window.

That means it's spring now, time for new beginnings. I think I am going to get some help. I need to get some help.

I'll let you guys know if I'm getting better. When I get better. When.

sometimes I wish I could just curl up into a ball and disappear for a while and wallow in my own stupidity and self pity. And then when I'm done crying, go back to the way things were when I was happy and have no one know how idiotic I was in my little ball and have no one ask me about it. Because I wont want to talk about it I'll just want to ( Read more... )

Unloved. People keep canceling on me or leaving me out of plans or "forgetting" to call me back. I am so sick of not being wanted but I don't know what to do in order to be wanted. I never thought I was such a bad girl that people wouldn't like me ( Read more... )

I woke up this morning w/ a strange feeling in all my body that something was wrong, and I still haven't figured out what. I want to call everyone and see if they are OK, but I don't want them thinking I'm some kind of freaking weirdo if nothing is wrong. Maybe I'm just going crazy ( Read more... )

I'm so in love I can't stop smiling. I cried today when I found out I got accepted to UNM for two reasons. The first because I am so excited to finally know for sure that I have escaped this retched town for good. And two, because now I know for sure I'll be leaving the man I love for good. But we both know I have to do this. I have to get out of ( Read more... )

woke up horny again today. Still no release. Tylina I swear this war is SO on ( Read more... )

And for the first time ever, I believe it. Yes mistakes will be made, hearts broken, people will be hurt. But at least I know now that I am smart enough to make the right decisions about everything. To not be lame ( Read more... )