I know its been a while and I dont know who even uses this anymore...but guess what... Im having a baby. Its gonna be a girl. Her name is gonna be Briana. I am due on June 12. I am scared because I know it is going to be the worst pain I have ever felt, but excited to see what she is gonna look like...beautiful of course!

Today is starting to be the worst day of my life. I dont feel like doing anything and I have class from 9-5. I feel like dying!

I hate life right now. I am getting stressed out about stupid little things. I am getting annoyed with myself!

I quit the worst job ever! But the bad thing is that now I have to go job hunting. I hate that. But I can work out with Justin now!!! Oh yeah... I am so happy that school is back in!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUSTIN!!!!!!

I am speachless right now. I dont know how to feel. I dont know what to say. He has so many questions that I dont know how to answer. I like him...alot. He makes me feel safe. But I think deep down I will always have a place for my first. I dont know if he will be able to deal with that....and it makes me sad.

Well it happened. I fell on my beautiful face and now my chin is messed up and I have to wear a band aid. It wont stop bleeding!!!!!

Last night I came to some realizations that made me both scared and sad. I wish my thoughts and feelings would be more clear to me. I feel like I am in a big haze and I cant see where I am going. Too bad it wasnt a real haze of Lucy! But really it is making me scared. I am scared of getting hurt. I am scared of never being loved. I want to be ( Read more... )

It has been a while!!! I have been dying working 2 jobs. And I have no MONEY!!! How does that work? I think I am having a pretty decent summer though. I have met some people that I enjoy. Its not over though. That scares me because I can see myself getting hurt soon. Why do I ALWAYS want what I cant have? Maybe I will get what I want this time.

Good bye forever...
I thought I would be a little stronger, but I guess not...
It hurt for a little bit but I wanted it to happen...
I am a little relieved that it is gone...
Now I will no longer wonder what it feels like to lose something so I cherished and was pround of...
But there is a time for everything...