the few words I would have to say on the matter, I barely feel like typing at the moment. I should spill my guts I suppose. I should let it all out blah blah. I should throw my, immature, irrational, childish, fit. Wouldnt that be grand. However the coldness I feel at the moment leads me to wonder, if this wall was completely down to begin with. ( Read more... )

If I believed in god, then I'd thank him for my friends. My great friends. The ones that look out for me when others dont. I'm more than certain that I'm over reacting and probably just acting immature, because that what we like to call it when the situation doesnt effect us. When you're watching someone else then the situation is so minimal, yet ( Read more... )

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Prayers that a new drummer is on the way. Hope that we can learn to not suck live anymore. Dreams that this new CD will be as amazing as Kyle and I have planned. Crossed fingers that this green candy will never run out ( Read more... )

What happened? How did I come so utterly disconnected. I think about it nearly every day now. Not in a lame, self pittying way, but just in bewilderment to how I've drifted so far away. In the past I would have considered myself one of the most social people I knew. I'm not very outgoing or assertive, but I liked people and I got the impression ( Read more... )

I just started to write a sentence and a half of an entry and then decided to write a very long song. I feel satisfied but strange to. A word about or new songs: One thing that I always loved about punk is that for the time you are listening to it, all the problems in life are cake, because thats not what the music deals with. Thats just me. I'm ( Read more... )

I just got home. We played the other day. It was alright. I had to do some stuff in town with my mom. My car broke down again. I'm waiting to see Sam today. I just checked my email. A few days ago I sent a guy an email interested in playing and SV battle of the bands. That email is below ( Read more... )

My heads spinning. I'm dazed like I've just woken up from a lucid dream that I couldnt escape. Alright, that last comment was more than just slightly feffering to Waking Life, but I must admit that everything feels so surrreal right now. Like the walls could easily melt away to reveal a skeleton of wood and nails. It wasnt the kind of weekend I ( Read more... )

This is so ridiculous. I'm just really tired. I got up too early I moved around too much. I'm really really tired. Drowning is a sensation that I dont mind, but I'd rather be drowning myself if its the way I have to go. Its late I was hungry but I'm too tired to eat ( Read more... )