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My heads spinning. I'm dazed like I've just woken up from a lucid dream that I couldnt escape. Alright, that last comment was more than just slightly feffering to Waking Life, but I must admit that everything feels so surrreal right now. Like the walls could easily melt away to reveal a skeleton of wood and nails. It wasnt the kind of weekend I would've wished for, and it seems that opportunity to do more with it has been taken from me, but I'll hang on to the memeories from it that were pleasant. Yesterday when we were trying to practice Daniel walked to this park down the way. We all followed, and during that time I climbed a tree and was watching everyone else. It seemed very symbolic to the way that I've been feeling for sometime now. I looked out from the pine needles at everyone below, and then I turned and watched a mother bird, tending to her 3 small eggs in her nest. Then I gathered what little balance I have and walked out on a branch over looking the road. Just seeing cars drive beneath, and watching rooftops multiply in the distance like laying in an empty river bed and watching the tops of the smooth stones that seem to go on for ever, as small insects crawll over them, as if to show that they are ultimately more infinite. It was enlightening. It made me realize my significance in the grand scheme of things, or lack there of. It was a long day and just like every other day that I choose to open my eyes in the morning, it came with regrets. Still it was beatuiful in the sense that, under the right circumstances things can still work out perfectly.