I have been so off the ball lately. I havent been sleeping well, I haven't been posting, my eating is one day not eating much and the next binging - I finally stopped purging for awhile. I also stopped the Zantrex-3's I lost about 2 pounds in the begining and then stayed there. So much has been going on in my head. The guy I am seeing for like 4 ( Read more... )

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Well I havent posyed in a bit so I figured its time. I hurt my knee and have been in pain so all ive been doin is crunches and lifting some weights. I'm at 148 and havent gained which is a huge plus... but omg so when i went to the doctor the nurse asked how much i weighed and when i told this fat cow she was like are u sure.. i said yea she goes ( Read more... )

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I havent posted in my own journal in awhile and thought i should. Things just seem to get better for a short while and then worse again. Me and my parents had a huge blow out tonight and I purged like 3 times, the most i have ever done in a day. I also took my diet pills a few hrs later. Sometimes I really hate myself, I just wish one day I could ( Read more... )

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So this is a ticker from my highest weight:


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Urgh, what did I tell my parents I did not want for easter..oh yea choclates and of course i had to eat them in front of them.. i feel like such a pig the last few days I have had to eat "normally" and gained 2pounds... it could be worse but a whole 2 pounds gawd.. today is a new day so restriction!!!

Well I had food posioning yesterday, I got it all up, which was good and i only had like 100 cals earlier that day - so I don't feel too bad eating "normally" today, but tomorrow its back to restricting. last time on the scale i was 151- which is good compared to my high weight of gulp 179... but still not even close to where I want to be. I keep ( Read more... )

I hate being sick, the only good thing is that I can't eat that much...