lost in fog
broken bottles and missing pieces
gone too far
to make amends to new releases

"the world is not around because of you.  you know i'm not around because of you."


( Read more... )

tick, tock, tick...

everything either goes too fast or too slow.  right now life seems to be doing both.  the days drag yet i am all too aware of my aging.  i should have done more by now.  i should have figured my life out.  i'm just the same lost and confused child i have always been.  just more scarred and worn.  i spin and spin, around in ( Read more... )

It's weird to come back here.  After so many comings and goings, after all the different people I have become, these thoughts still remain.  A semi-permanent record of my scars.

I am unsure of whether or not I will start using this again regularly.  I've just really been needing to put my thoughts down somewhere.  And at the moment I am too lazy to ( Read more... )

not sure if i am actually going to start using this again.  it's always an on again, off again relationship.  just felt like coming on here today for some reason.  not that i have anything important to say ( Read more... )

things are good and bad.  so whatever.  i have no control over the circumstances.  i wish some things could be different.  but i am giving up on that ( Read more... )

my timing and form have been quite lacking.  poor mental and physical health has made everything all askew.

i kept picking at the loose threads until i unraveled the whole thing.  what is left when you strip it all away?  existence through minimalism.

at the bottom i believe that i did manage to gain the proper perspective on matters.  but at what ( Read more... )

i think things make sense now for the most part.  some thoughts have been forcibly restrained however ( Read more... )

all i can accomplish lately is sleep, drinking, and work (just barely).  i can't eat, or play my guitar, or watch anything.  i have become a zombie.  i can't talk to anyone, i can't bring myself to even log into myspace.  i barely managed to get myself onto here.  i can't help but feel like i've ruined basically everything.  i'm sorry, but i think ( Read more... )

it's weird how random moments of clarity can strike at the most unexpected times and in the most unexpected ways.  i can't believe i just almost misspelled unexpected twice in a row...or for that matter how long it took to successfully spell misspelled ( Read more... )

this week has been a waste.  i have been too depressed to accomplish almost anything.  i can't force myself to call anyone in an attempt to bring myself out of this funk.  i go to work..then come home and do pretty much nothing.  i can't even bring myself to eat very much.  it may sound weird but i usually have to get a bit drunk to force myself to ( Read more... )