I have felt horribly on-edge, tense, unable to relax, stressed, upset and depressed and angry, very very lonely for the past couple weeks. I was keeping a handle on it at the beginning of the semester. That fandom thing I said happened and did not describe really pushed everything over the edge. I have been bipolar my whole life, so it's not like I haven't felt like this before, but I've never felt like this while having so many responsibilities
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But it does help that two of the most important men in my life, Wulff and my Dad, both got weird vibes from C and liked Kyle even when I didn't like him. So things probably turned out for the best. I have no idea if they found internships yet (and they need to have 90 hours by the end of the semester).
Kyle has done more for me as a friend than practically any friend I've had in real life, and I've learned so much from him and he's learned from me too. He's a friend worth losing 3 people over who never, I guess, cared much for me, if this happened so easily. Unfortunate. But I still have him.
I only started driving this summer, and I had SO MUCH anxiety starting that, and I am at least able to keep pretty calm, but I'm still kind of dumb on the road, but I try. I like it when Kyle's in the car, he's awesome with directions and helps point things out that I might miss if he wasn't there.
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I think it's a great way to get your feelings out onto paper.
I'll assume this is a personal poem. If so, I hope you start feeling better soon. Spring is just around the corner!
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Kyle has done more for me as a friend than practically any friend I've had in real life, and I've learned so much from him and he's learned from me too. He's a friend worth losing 3 people over who never, I guess, cared much for me, if this happened so easily. Unfortunate. But I still have him.
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