take apart your head

[helen_halliwell]

 take apart your head
grey's anatomy: lexie/mark
Lexie's point of view from the shooting on. Spoilers for all aired episodes.

Comments

[lizzy29]

That waa great! Reading it on my iphone on my way to work and I have the biggest smile ever. Thanks for filling in the blabks left from
the show. Loved it.

[helen_halliwell]

Glad I made your morning! :)

[waltzmatildah]

Lexie doesn't love Alex Karev and Alex is in no condition to love anybody. The truth is scary, but necessary, and somehow, it hurts in a good way.

AND

"Do you want to marry me or get married?" she whispers slowly. The fact she's not sure that Mark wouldn't understand the difference is what terrifies her.

If your fic consisted of nothing but these two notions, it would still be awesome! Because, right there, you've encapsulated all the things that mean A/L and M/L really don't work in any way resembling the conventional...

Alex isn't in a position to love anyone...

Lexie probably isn't either...

And Mark is only in love with an idea...

Brilliant!

Of course, the bonus is that the fic isn't only those two notions!!

Loved it. Thanks!

[helen_halliwell]

At this point, I just adore Lexie's character and I (almost) don't care who she ends up with. I still ship Lexie/Mark more than Lexie/Alex, just because I loved their old relationship. But, I don't honestly know if they can ever get that back. I would love it, but I just don't know....

I think Lexie pursuing Alex is a terrible idea right now, though it would be extremely interesting. I also think her marrying Mark is a terrible idea as well. I feel like the show kind of cheapened her relationship with Mark and the fic I read on here is what kept it alive.

I don't know...I'm as torn as Lexie :)

Anyway, glad you enjoyed this! I'm happy you agree with what I truly feel, Alex is not in the best place for love right now, Mark may not truly understand Lexie right now (not that he couldn't), and most of all, I think Lexie is just plain lonely.

Thanks for reading!

[waltzmatildah]

I also ship Mark/Lexie more than Alex/Lexie because it will ALWAYS be about Alex/IZZIE for me, and I don't see how Lexie could ever be expected to compete with that, and I don't think she should have to.

HOWEVER... at this point, I just adore Alex's character and I (almost) don't care who he ends up with :)

I feel like the show kind of cheapened her relationship with Mark... I completely agree, I think this is exactly what they did with it. And it's such a shame because I still believe it's one of the few GA relationships that they actually took some deliberate steps to build (A/I and M/D being the only other two, imo).

(not that he couldn't) I actually do disagree with this, but only because I think the shift in perspective it would require for him to understand her is almost beyond what he's capable of (on past evidence in their relationship anyhow). I have convinced that Mark is in love with the idea of Lexie as this good and pure person who is going to 'fix' him and be his 'family' (wife, mother of his children etc), but he's

[helen_halliwell]

I wholeheartedly agree about Alex. I love him. Alex/Izzie is definitely one of my favorite ships, and you're right, Lexie could never compete with Izzie in Alex's eyes.

Yes, they built M/L up and then ruined it in such a cheap way. I completely see what you're saying about Mark being in love with the idea of her. I still think he could redeem himself though. I do really believe he used to understand her, even when she said things he didn't want to hear (such as not being ready for marriage/a family/etc). I think Mark's still dealing with everything that happened and all he knows is he wants to be with Lexie and he can't understand why she doesn't just want to marry him.

I have hope he'll wake up, I guess? I'd love for the two of them to have a freakin' conversation, like they used to.

[violet1979]

As always, this is a great read! I love your additional scenes, and this great insight into Lexie's thoughts.

Yay, finally, a glimpse at the change of hair color!! She sits on the floor of the laundry room, watching as her blood-soaked scrubs spin around and around. The dye in her hair burns her scalp, but she continues to sit quietly, finding the circular motion comforting. I feel that this sums up her current state of mind perfectly.

She still hasn't told anyone about the cold metal barrel staring back at her, has she? (I'm so convinced of this that I probably tend to misinterpret grossly lol)

She's a truly magnificent bitch at the fridge, and I love that Alex apologizes. Their kind-of-reconciliation is so lovely that the M/L shipper in me does not even mind. WTF?! :)

"Do you want to marry me or get married?" she whispers slowly. The fact she's not sure that Mark wouldn't understand the difference is what terrifies her. I think this is dead on from a Lexie perspective at this point of time (although I'd still beg to differ on

[helen_halliwell]

I have about a million different scenes all dealing with Lexie dying her hair. I'm still convinced that her first scene in 7X01 with Mark where she says, "I'm back" has a lot to do with her hair and her being "back to normal". I read way too much into everything she does

[waltzmatildah]

Yeah, I'm totally convinced it happened at least one more time, and no one can tell me different :)

I'm totally convinced it's gonna happen again :) Off screen/on screen/in my head... it'll happen!

[violet1979]

*sigh* What can I do? You're both probably right.

But wait, this could mean another round of Alex/+Mark rivalry!! Yay, that would lift my spirits drastically! :D

[helen_halliwell]

Aw, thank you for reading! Glad you found the ending funny...I loved the old dialogue between Mark/Lexie and would love for them to start talking the way they used to.

I'm crossing my fingers for their reunion as well!

[halo_jess]

I, myself, am a huge ML fan... and I love the way you wrote this...! :) I added you as a friend, hope you dont mind! :)

[helen_halliwell]

Thanks! And no problem...adding back :)

Editing this to say...you're a House/Cameron fan AND a Mark/Lexie fan?! *hugs*