take apart your head

[helen_halliwell]

 take apart your head
grey's anatomy: lexie/mark
Lexie's point of view from the shooting on. Spoilers for all aired episodes.

Comments

[violet1979]

As always, this is a great read! I love your additional scenes, and this great insight into Lexie's thoughts.

Yay, finally, a glimpse at the change of hair color!! She sits on the floor of the laundry room, watching as her blood-soaked scrubs spin around and around. The dye in her hair burns her scalp, but she continues to sit quietly, finding the circular motion comforting. I feel that this sums up her current state of mind perfectly.

She still hasn't told anyone about the cold metal barrel staring back at her, has she? (I'm so convinced of this that I probably tend to misinterpret grossly lol)

She's a truly magnificent bitch at the fridge, and I love that Alex apologizes. Their kind-of-reconciliation is so lovely that the M/L shipper in me does not even mind. WTF?! :)

"Do you want to marry me or get married?" she whispers slowly. The fact she's not sure that Mark wouldn't understand the difference is what terrifies her. I think this is dead on from a Lexie perspective at this point of time (although I'd still beg to differ on Mark's actual motivations for the husband line :)).

I love your background to the 7x02 scene: but he'll tell her he loves her again and she can not handle that right now. ... She left and he hated her for it. So true!

And how gorgeously in character are her two impulses to first, suddenly want to fix their monumental problems by having, frankly, no plan at all, and second, have self-destructive/punishing sex with Alex AGAIN!! Now you say it, I can't shake the feeling that this actually happened.

The long overdue sisterly conversation would certainly be the most logical continuation of 7x04. I hope so much that we get to see something like this on this wildly illogical show. :) And the most beautiful outcome would certainly be a real conversation between Mark and Lexie - preferably in such a charming and very Grey's way as you did. ♥

[helen_halliwell]

I have about a million different scenes all dealing with Lexie dying her hair. I'm still convinced that her first scene in 7X01 with Mark where she says, "I'm back" has a lot to do with her hair and her being "back to normal". I read way too much into everything she does.

I'm with you, sista'. I can't get that damn scene out of my head, where she all but gave in to Mr. Clark and the fact that she was going to die.

Lexie/Alex - I still mostly hate that I cannot hate these two. I'm going to stop there :)

Lexie/Mark - I hate the way they talk around each other. Mark tells her he loves her, but he never apologizes to her. She tells him to stop talking to her, but she never really gets mad at him for the right reasons. But then Mark looks at her and I all but melt ;)

I don't think Mark just wants to get married, but I'm not convinced Lexie truly believes he only wants her (after sleeping with Addison, half the hospital, and Amelia). I think Mark wants to marry her, but he doesn't understand she's not in the same place right now. I just want them to TALK, have a real conversation, and I'll be ridiculously happy with that.

As for Lexie sleeping with Alex? Yeah, I'm totally convinced it happened at least one more time, and no one can tell me different :)

So happy you liked this ♥

[waltzmatildah]

Yeah, I'm totally convinced it happened at least one more time, and no one can tell me different :)

I'm totally convinced it's gonna happen again :) Off screen/on screen/in my head... it'll happen!

[violet1979]

*sigh* What can I do? You're both probably right.

But wait, this could mean another round of Alex/+Mark rivalry!! Yay, that would lift my spirits drastically! :D