Where do I go from here? (Open)

[faramir_hurin]

After the conversation with my father I am at such a loss that I know not what to do. I went to my rooms after and looked at the cabinet beside my bed. That folder was where it should be, where I keep it. I took it and put it under everything else. Olore, being the curious fellow he is, decided that since the cabinet was open he should investigate

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[needsthumpin]

Kerai was on her way home from the music store when she saw Faramir ahead of her, looking a little distracted. This was nothing new for him, he often had his mind elsewhere, but as she got closer, she felt the stirring in his feelings, such as she'd never felt in him before, confusion, shock, and a tremulous...joy?

As she neared, if he didn't see her, she would put a hand on his arm.

[faramir_hurin]

I'm so distracted that I do not see Kerai approach until she is very close. I break into a wide smile with a slight trace of embarrassment in it--she saw me when I was turned to a child.

"Kerai, how are you this day?"

I'm not getting notifs either.

[needsthumpin]

She takes his hand, and looks into his eyes.

"I am well, my friend. And how are you?"

[faramir_hurin]

There is that feeling when she touches me, the memory that she might have been more, then it's gone and she's the very good friend I know.

"I think I am well, possibly better than well, though I probably shouldn't be." As odd as that seems. "I spoke with father. He found out about what happened on the island--how I came to be here."

Yes, that is good.

[needsthumpin]

"Yes," Kerai says gently. "I met him when he was in the shock of it. He needed time to collect himself -- he didn't want you to see him in that state. That's how I came to be your caretaker for a bit."

[faramir_hurin]

"Ah. I was a strange child, I suppose."

Father was trying to help me, to keep me busy. I understand that. Why did he look in the folder? It was a betrayal, but for the best--like my death itself. What an odd thing.

"I never knew, of course. It was still a shock to see father that age when I was used to him as he was when I was a boy. He was quite surprised to see me so little." If Boromir had been here, too... Ah, well.

[needsthumpin]

"You were a solemn child -- reserved and formal. But the buds of warmth and affection were there, just waiting for a little sunshine to coax them into bloom." She had liked the child Faramir very much.

[faramir_hurin]

"To father, the child I was had much more warmth than I do. He said..." I still cannot believe it. "He was hurt that I never told him but he knew why I did not."

It's like a dream.

"He understood. He called me son."

[needsthumpin]

"I don't think he realized how far he'd wandered away from expressing any natural feelings for you, until then. They were as butterflies in amber." She smiled slightly up at him.

"I care for you both...it would be a very great pleasure to me, if you could find your ways back to each other. Though I realize he has the farther to go."

[faramir_hurin]

"He expressed his wish that we should speak more often." He meant it. Whether or not it will happen I cannot say, but he meant it.

"Butterflies in amber--untouchable." But there.

"For the first time I am afraid that the village is going to take me away. I've had the feeling that I should be here but now I have this great hope and I fear." I'm not supposed to want things for myself but I cannot help it. "Perhaps it is a strange miracle of the season. You know that Christmas is an important Earth holiday."

It's very mixed up, but there is no denying the importance of it.

[needsthumpin]

"Yes I know, though I can't understand it all. I know it's a time for remembering loved ones."

[faramir_hurin]

"Perhaps even the ones we forgot we loved." I don't know. "It seems so unreal. Boromir and I got to spend time together and now father would do the same. It is my greatest wish."

She likely knows.

"You--are you doing well?" She said so, but I would know more.

[needsthumpin]

"And it's what I would wish for you, for both of you. " She squeezes his hand.

"I am very well, thank you. I feel...whole."

[faramir_hurin]

Some of the bemusement leaves me with the squeeze of my hand.

"Whole? Did something happen?" That sounds quite promising.

[needsthumpin]

"No one thing in particular has happened, there has just been a steadily growing awareness, since that time when I was no more attached to this body than any other thread in the Weave, that the Weave and I, while not the same, are yet one."

[faramir_hurin]

"I do not even begin to understand. I suppose it is a bit like learning to control my Long Sight again, though that is a part of me and the Weave is... and isn't you." I look at her, so small yet powerful. "It's a bit like me coming back to life again, too. For six days I was aware but had no body."

Nor was I a thread in a weave, as far as I know.

"It is good that you are whole again. I only wish for the best for you."