Today started out sleepy. Then moved on to annoying and drawn out. I wrote a half ass paper. Smiled for an hour or so while having random conversation as usual. I love it. Went for a dive. Then again. Smoked my last cigarette for the night. Now i stare blankly at this screen hoping for answers. Many questions to be answered. But no one to answer ( Read more... )

Today was pretty unproductive as usual. Lauren and I posted up at the smokers table with our computers and tried to study and write a paper. Riiiight. Then we went out for a girls night out diner with coffee and cigarettes proceeding. Then I came back to my dorm and dug a big hole and burried myself in it. Why do i continuously put myslef in shitty ( Read more... )

Rough night last night...could not sleep at all!! Instead my thinking turned into one of those awake but still incoherent dreams. It was the most fucked up thing ever!!! I think i need to make a few phone calls and make sure my friends are still alive. To class then back to sleep, as usual.

Another wonderfull and CRUNKin weekend. Went to Orlando again for a mad ass party. I feel like when i go there its like my happy place. I escape all reality and let loose. There is nothing to hide and no one to run from. But now im back at school and its all going to begin again...the schedule life....you always have somewhere you have to be. I ( Read more... )

Woke up this HEINOUS morning at aproxametly 8:07 only to drag mad ass and combine a few articles of clothing to look somehwat decent before scurying to my Phycology class at 9:00 AM. Do you like the color green? Argyle is angry and Plaid is confusing. So I have decided that if my brain were a color it would be plaid (and yes, not debatable plaid is ( Read more... )

I am terrified of being alone ( Read more... )

Every waking moment you run through my head ( Read more... )

How can an empty heart be filled with so many lies ( Read more... )

life is short, dont let it fly

be hosent and don't ever lie

it brings you down, and makes you frown

it hurts to know you have let them down

even though you think its fine

it ruins your life, just look at mine

everyday, don't believe what I say

mom im sorry, its what I have to do

a week without him, I cant get through

without these lies I would be ( Read more... )

why does she not listen

to the words of the wise

our advice she does despise

pushing us away

not listening to what we have to say

"he is perfect for me"

but what she cant see

is so much deeper then his words

he is changing her

but not for the better

a life for her no one expected

bad days everyday

why she still wont listen

no one will ( Read more... )