this past week has honestly been hell. i guess it's for the best though... you make mistakes and you learn from them. i'm sick now, and i'm pretty sure i'm staying home tomorrow. my feelings are very mixed at the moment, and it's really difficult to think these things through. a phone call or a nice comment would be greatly appreciated. i've ( Read more... )

I'm very angry with myself. and i feel i've done wrong. i can't stop how i feel, but i'm pretty sure i can change how i express it. both of you mean everything to me. i'm staying home from school today, because my mom thought i'd hang myself at school, cause i looked so down. i wrote this for you.

Under no circumstance should i have done ( Read more... )

i haven't updated in a few days. i've been pretty happy with myself. :]. also, school seems to be doing me good. i also became closer to a lot more people from the twp. i'm drinking tea. there's something in my eye. i have homework. other than those two bad things, i think i'm alright. now if you'll excuse me, i have work to do... *turns on ( Read more... )

okay. to the 2 people that will actually read this... i feel like shit. i feel like lying there in a ball in the corner of my couch. i'm suddenly depressed. i get bad headaches, and i feel lightheaded all the time. i find myself lying on my couch. just lying there. maybe an occasional sing here and there. but overall, that's how it is. i ( Read more... )

i stayed home from school today. i still don't feel good. Lauren apparently said she died, and scared the fuck out of me, leaving me here crying for hours. that's soo fucking gay. she wanted to mess with me. i don't really want to ever talk to her again because of that. fuck people. just fuck them. GOD

today. today...today, was GREAT! actually it kinda sucked. but eh...i'm getting pretty sick of fuckfaces at my school making fun of me and/or not liking me because i'm the only kid there who doesn't give in to their games. and that's fucking bullshit, not that i should really care what the fuck is on what's left of their minds. i get at least ( Read more... )

i feel very mellowed out. i fixed my glasses, they're looking good. i look sophisticated when i wear them, like an artist. for many people, tomorrow is the first day of school, but for me, it's just the end of another repetitious weekend. i wish that day would come sooner. i'm tired of waiting, i really am. i haven't been doing much lately, ( Read more... )

today just so happens to be friday. i fell asleep shortly after i got home from school, which felt like shit. after i woke up my neck hurt like fuck, probably cause i sleep on a fucking couch. anyway, today i talked to some cool people, like, emily mathieson. i also talked to lauren hohendorf, she's pretty sweet. i'm debating whether or not i ( Read more... )

tomorrow's friday!! personally, my hurrication was great! it was a nice 2 days off, doing nothing but playing video games and eating grapes. anyway, i did like 53 definitions in one night for american history, which sucked ass. i also had a detention today, for saying "Are you mad at me, Ms. Graham?", while the class was silently reading. i ( Read more... )

not only do i feel sick, but i feel irritable. everything seems to be going good, but it just doesn't feel like it. first things first, school. school for me is better than i had wished, and yet i dont like waking up for it. my room is clean and it feels like theres a LOT more space, but i can never keep it clean. i think i need a haircut. i ( Read more... )