i woke up at 6 am, on the couch (i passed out there), unable to move. i had this terrible pain in my hip, under the surface but not in my joints. my first sleepy terrified thought was that a huge network of blood vessels had burst. then i wondered if i'd been voodooed. trying to roll over was too painful. i laid there and tried to stretch it ( ( Read more... )

i've started the process ( Read more... )

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so i just woke up, so don't expect miracles here ( Read more... )

ugh, after nearly everyone had left class, and there were only a few girls left, there was a bragging contest about terrible things that had happened to them/who had the most fucked up family. i kept my head down and worked.

courage, openness, lightness of heart, wide-eyed, greatful.
ugh, how cliche that it's thanksgiving.
i think we're going to have another halloween party. it was so lovely last year.

i have things to sort out.
ok, frankly, i'm a mess.
i've decided i'm going to post a series of purges. write down all the bad stuff. from memory, from my overactive brain, from the dark tarpit that's accumulating in my heart.

thomas edison used to hold a spoon between two fingers over a tin plate, as he sat down for a nap ( Read more... )

ok, whatever.

it is a very strange feeling, to meet someone in a dream, and miss them terribly when you wake up.