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[hatboxmoon]

today has offered blow after blow. i am sitting here trying to feel blessed or identify the origin of my terrible mood so i can attempt to remedy it. i'm in a funky place, thick and reletless with no identifiable doors, in or out. i need sleep desperately

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[anonymous]

NEW JERSEY?!? Hahahaha. Oh, Sonya. Thank god for firewalls. After privately vowing not to address this, you sure went to a lot of effort to publicly respond.

[nasal]

didn't you ever vow not to be a total douchebag? 'cuz you're sure going to a lot of effort to be a jerk for no apparent reason.

Sonya

[anonymous]

As far as "being confused about why you'd spend such an insanely huge ammount of time reading my back journal entries" Did you ever stop to think about the fact that I know you? That I have been reading your journal for a long long time, but I just finally got fed up enough with all your ridiculous self-indulgence that I couldn't hold my tongue about it any longer? You give yourself a lot of credit to assume that you could inspire this level of disgust in a complete stranger.

Re: Sonya

[hatboxmoon]

the thought crossed my mind, of course. i'm just tying to figure out which one of my so-called "friends" is a sociopathic, mysoginistic, heterosexist asshole with fundamentalist tendencies. i never claimed to be a great judge of character, but i have a hard time believing you made it under the radar and got notonto my friends list, which you are, unless you're breaking into my filtered posts. at this point, stupid could be added to that list of adjectives aswell, cuz when you're found out, and you will be, you will have a lot of hell to pay from this online community. not for flaming me, but for being anti-mama, anti-woman, anti-sexual assult survivor, and many other fucked up things. shit like that doesn't fly where i come from.

p.s. you're sick. get help.

Re: Sonya

[hatboxmoon]

p.p.s. if my journal has been digusting you for a long, long time, why are you still reading it? youobviously have way more free time than i do, not to mention 90% of the poeple i know.

Re: Sonya

[anonymous]

I kept hoping i would see an improvement in you, but instead you just got worse and worse. All of your assumptions, albeit amusing, couldn't be further from the actual truth. Heterosexist?? No, I just think a self-proclaimed lesbian (who says that her "mind was made up," which is not a component of sexuality, by the way) wouldn't be constantly sleeping with/lusting after men. (I realize you are not currently in a sexual relationship with any men right now, but you aren't fucking any women either. Just "jacking off" *rolls eyes* all the time.) There isn't anything wrong with bisexuality, but sex with men (beyond the point of teenage sexual confusion/shame sex) does NOT a lesbian make. Also, proclaiming yourself in love with men (the name Lam ring a bell) isn't very lesbian of you

[lovesprout]

holy crap...this is really upsetting. i just got back from vacation. i'm so sorry someone could be so cowardly as to have to post disrespectful comments anonymously. hence, why my journal recently became friends-only.

[undefine]

"i will not raise an arrogant, ignorant white son. to give him his every whim would be sorely irresponsible. to introduce to him the concept that he does not derserve something solely because he wants it is intensly important to me, hense phrases such as, "that's an unrealistic expectation to have of me". i am proud of that phrase and many similar parenting actions."

my son will be upstanding and compassionate and understand that because of the power given to him automatically because of his gender and race he is required to relinquish some of his desires and comforts in the name of equlity. this is not haphazard parenting, the result of me being incapable of providing to him that which is my responsibility. it is a conscious choice and i believe deeply in it."

[undefine]

"i will not raise an arrogant, ignorant white son. to give him his every whim would be sorely irresponsible

[undefine]

while we as adults have the difficult task ahead of us of unlearning desire-like addictions for things that cause pain, because our damaged lives taught us to depend those things, luca does not have to go through this. he is a fresh start and has the chance to not learn those hurtful addictions in the first place, to experience his innate, instinctual need/desires as the place where satisfaction is found, and to not feel for one minute that he does not deserve to have his need/desire cared for. you have given him this so far. why would you turn on him and suddenly tell him he does not deserve to follow his desires? all that amounts to is a shackling. and one you choose to do yourself

[mooncrab]

hey mama, I'm adding you because even tho I had to part with my old LJ I couldn't part with sonya! You know me, please add me back!