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madness
Time will catch up to all of us. You can't stay young forever. Some people (more and more these days I think) tend to extend their adolescence, but staying in school or going back to school. Or getting an easy job but continuing to party and be single instead of settling down. I've had the opportunity to do these things but I'm struggling to let go ( Read more... ) -
All mixed up, don't know what to do
I'm all torn up today. Not on the outside. I feel as though I've been hit with an emotional train. Today is not a good day. I drank too much on an empty stomach and made a fool of myself yet again. It hit me today why I act the way I do at times. What else is there to say about it though. I miss my friend. -
eyes wide open
I'm really sleepy and work early, so this will be brief ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
There is no way to "replace" the feelings we shared for each other. I'll never understand her the way I need to. Acceptance is the best I can do. Now that she's moving away I've been thinking of her again. I'm torn whether or not I should see her off or not. I need to see her. And she'll want to see me. But to what purpose? I've done well now for a ( Read more... ) -
live music = a happy heart
My soul is never happier then when being emotionally blown away by my favorite musicians. On that note I have a new favorite band. I mean a real favorite this time I've bounced around a little. The chille peppers are now # 2 after holding the #1 spot in my heart for a good long time, and they are still amazing. But after last night Mumford and Sons ( Read more... ) -
Times they are a changing
It never happens all at once. There is never a line you jump over and go from one time in your life to another. Things are constantly changing. People come into my life, then they leave, or I leave. I've known some wonderful people. I'm staring at 29 and i'm like where'd the time go? But I know where it went. I'm all to conscious of where it's ( Read more... ) -
Putting it all together
All my life I have picked up tidbits here and there of how to live life in a way that keeps me happy, healthy, and motivated. I've always had problems with consistency and usually I get side tracked somewhere along the way and good intentions turn to sour disappointment. Ever since I parted ways with the country club I've had the perfect storm of ( Read more... ) -
peaks and valleys
Of the thoughts that run through my weary mind, the fly often lights on where I am in terms of where my peers are. I'm often disappointing with my self, but at the end of every day it will always be the decisions that I make that take me in whatever direction i'm going. The fly being my hyper active mind and it's inability to concentrate on one ( Read more... ) -
can't stop
thinking about that girl. It's funny because I mean I knew that I loved that girl but I didn't know I was IN love with her. I've never been in love with anyone that I wasn't dating. Katie and I have never eve had one romantic/intimate moment. We've always been friends. But that night I realized how much I really do care about her and want her. And ( Read more... ) -
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I had an interesting night last night. Words were said, that can't be taken back. I'm an emotional person, this I know. But last night was one of those nights. It was a real moment in my life. It was a...moment of clarity. Sitting in that room I knew why I was there. it all made sense. The only reason I ever came out of the house was for Katie. She ( Read more... )