someone telling you information that you dont remember, not remembering your childhood, and not being able to recall events five years ago is a scary thing. Repression is a scary thing.

Change is needed, Change is good, Change keeps things moving. 
But why I cant accept it stumps me.

Distrubia will be seen soon.

Fireworks

You hate me and I hate you
And we are so polite, we two!

But whenever I see you, I burst apart
And scatter the sky with my blazing heart.
It spits and sparkles in the stars and balls,
Buds into roses - and flares, and falls.

Scarlet buttons, and pale green disks,
Silver spirals and asterisks,
Shoot and tremble in a mist
Peppered with mauve ( Read more... )

When my love swears that she is made of truth ( Read more... )

I've been making rice crispie treats lately.
I've been thinking about getting NEW friends lately.
I've been thinking about moving away lately.
...my next step though will only be to read a book.

Lame.

My body is trying to tell me to slow down, so I have gotten sick with a terrible cold. Now, I am incapable of doing ANYTHING that I usually can do on a regualr basis because this cold is holding me back. I guess now I can really complain and say something IS holding me back. When I feel better I will have no excuse to label my laziness ( Read more... )

like today, I feel like the crummiest person in the world when I know better. I won't go on to explain why I had a shitty day and why I just felt like giving up because that doesn't matter. What matters is that someone out there cares. First of all, yourself. Second, someone who loves you. Its amazing how people can miss that sometimes.

I really ( Read more... )

So, school has been canceled for three days so far. Its christmas break again minus me driving anywhere due to Mr.Winter.

I need coffee. I miss the local coffee shop. Coffee with friends is always entertaining, especially during class... I really think that one day I'll be one of those unsocial woman sitting in a coffee shop  corner all day...  ( Read more... )

Since my last entry, SO many things have happened.
Funny thing is, ten years from now, it won't matter.

I know it sounds all new years-like, but w/e:
I really do want to start a new.
I just want to better myself, for myself, by myself.
I hope friends don't think I'm straying away.
I'm justing finding my own space.

Ha! So Warped Tour '06. I honestly thought this year it was going to slip through my fingers, BUT a friend at the LAST minute bought my ticket and gave me a ride. Some people are JUST so fuckin nice. I will sincerly try to make it up to her ( Read more... )

For me; only some 400 miles ( Read more... )